obligated

[loonyme]

yeh thats how i feel every single day-obligated to someone or something.<img src=smilies/banghead.gif>

i have wonderful parents and i know it but my mom insists on telling me about how wonderful she is and how i have this whole list of obligations to fulfil failing which i am a lousy human being.
for instance my younger sibling. he is a slow learner and i understand that i may have to look to him in the future but i don't need to be told that my life is secondary to his.
this atmosphere has so gotten to me that i am perpetually feeling that i owe people -friends, aquaintances, the place i study, the office staff just everybody.

the point of the matter is i have lost interest in all sort of activity and currently i just exist and i feel like i am a lousy human being...a bag of crap that needs to be disposed.<img src=smilies/2gunsfiring_v1.gif>

<P ID="signature">JUSTME</P>

 

[shawn]

Life is responsibility, and that includes family, friends, and work. It is a little overwelming at times but you have to figure out what is important. Friends are there for relaxation and enjoyment. Family is there for support but that's a 2 way street and sometimes like as in your brother someone needs more support than you do but don't forget all that time your mom worked raising you also and that includes keeping a roof over your head, that isn't easy nowadays. Work sucks and this includes education also if you happen to be in college, but it's a necessary suckage to keep the rest of your life together.
I've been out of work for almost 3 months now and I need a good job right now but family have bailed my ass out of a possible homelessness now for over a year now since the state could care less about me since I'm just a disposable factory worker at the moment, but I know things will change sometime soon they always do so I'm saying just hang in there because almost everyone goes through a time like this in there lives to.
Just hang in there and things will change soon. <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

<P ID="signature"></P>