is there a pill for this?

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I think god has put this woman on the planet to punish me. Since I was 20 this girl has been both the greatest love and the deepest pain in my life. I let her go this time (it was my turn) but I find myself constantly thinking about her. Why does this one person mean so much to me? I don't fully understand it. It struck me the very moment I met her- it was the strangest, most powerful thing. At age 20 I didn't give a shit about love, I just wanted to have sex with as many girls I could- but this was a much deeper attraction. Like I had found something that was missing my whole life. I hate to sound all sappy, but this is what it feels like. When she's here, I feel complete. We're like a team, we do everything together. And she's not an accessory like some of the girls I see my friends with. She's got her own thing going, she really knows how to dress and command respect. It sort of disturbs and fascinates me the way she gets whatever she wants from anyone. And she uses that to push all my buttons... like she knows exactly how to make me jealous and always seems to be hiding her sadness and vulnerable feelings under a quiet cool. This chick is a living mystery, and I think that's why I'm still so attracted to her. Drives me nuts. Like, most girls will want to cuddle and share pillow talk after sex, but she'll get up and put on her dancin shoes. Not a word, sometimes I almost expect her to throw me a $20 spot or something. And she gets very irritable and self-destructive when she's depressed. If I try and help or comfort her, she backs off or snaps at me for no reason. So I thought I'd be better off on my own, but now that she's gone again I'm right back where I started. Missing something.

Damn that complicated ass woman.

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> Damn that complicated ass woman.
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Nope. No pill. Not that I know of. But if you find one, never tell me where it is. There are times I'd be tempted to take it. Then I'd probably regret it.


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> Nope. No pill. Not that I know of. But if you find one,
> never tell me where it is. There are times I'd be tempted to
> take it. Then I'd probably regret it.

If there was a pill like that, I'd take it. Why would I regret it if I no longer cared? Mmmm...sweet, sweet apathy.


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> I can relate.
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I used to relate. I had a woman in my life named Nicole last year who was the same kind of best/worst thing I could imagine.

Now I'm with a lady named Laura and she's just like that, except without the worst part.

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I knew a girl like that. I loved a girl like that.

Until she double crossed me, betraying me and leaving me for her "friends".

Here's a suggestion - if you fall for someone, make sure they are honest with you. Otherwise you're fucked up the ass.

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> I can relate.
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Is this just the way women behave when they know you love them? Because it's the opposite effect when you don't. Some broke ugly bastard's probably sweeping her off her ass right now. This is what drives me to misbehave. This is historically where I become Mr. Hyde and tear shit up in a toxin tornado.

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> I think god has put this woman on the planet to punish me.

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> I can relate.

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My problems with Laura were well documented in this forum.

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Sounds like she's a spoiled bitch with no manners to me, if she doesn't know how to control herself and learn a little manners and the fact the world doesn't revolve around her might be something nice for her to actually realize also. <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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> Sounds like she's a spoiled bitch with no manners to me,

based on what? the fact that she does her own thing? sure, she sounds like she can be rude after sex, but that is no indication that she's a spoiled bitch. seems like the kind of relationship problem (if there is a problem) that can be solved with some talking/compromise IF it isn't approached in this way.

if
> she doesn't know how to control herself and learn a little
> manners and the fact the world doesn't revolve around her
> might be something nice for her to actually realize also.

i don't know her of course, so i can't really say any more about her character than you can, but i don't see any indication for you to attack her. she seems to have a mind of her own, but that's not a bad thing you know.


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I'm sorry but I hate woman that use there looks to get there way and consider most of them spoiled little bitches using there looks to get what they want and it seems from what he said she does that and girls like that don't ever face the REAL world because when you have looks it's like a crutch till age rips that crutch out from under their shallow asses and then it's a whole new situation.
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> > Sounds like she's a spoiled bitch with no manners to me,

(In answer to shawn) I can see where it might sound like this, but there's more to her than her recent selfish actions. I wouldn't feel any love for her if she was just a spoiled bitch. She's actually a very sweet girl with a big heart. We share a lot in common, our taste for music, art, and cars. Unfortunately, she has some emotional problems and a subsequent drug problem which is turning her into a more and more selfish/ angry person. It hurts me to have to see this.

> based on what? the fact that she does her own thing? sure,
> she sounds like she can be rude after sex, but that is no
> indication that she's a spoiled bitch.

I wouldn't call her a spoiled bitch, but she can act that way sometimes. The way she acts about sex doesn't really bother me so much as it excites me. The thing that drives me nuts is how she won't talk to me about what's bothering her.

>seems like the kind
> of relationship problem (if there is a problem) that can be
> solved with some talking/compromise IF it isn't approached
> in this way.

This has been going on for almost four years. I love her and I wish she could change, I have certainly made plenty of compromises to try and make her happy. She's the one who can't stop using drugs and disappearing with shady people. When I first met her, she had never done things like this. Her whole life focus was on school, acting, and singing. Something went wrong a few years ago when she made some bad friends. All I want is for her to stop hurting herself and put her talents to use.


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You may realize this already but I'm going to say it anyways. Maybe she's DOING things for the drugs, drugs like oxycotin, heroin, coke, and crack have long been known to be highly addictive, and to some woman coke can be much more addictive than it can be for any man since studies have shown some woman get what I'll refer to as a super addiction to it for some reason the study found and will do anything to get ahold of the drug. I highly doubt even if you are extremely close to you she'ld tell you if she was this addicted or what she did to obtain any if she was caught in this cycle because most woman like this are ashamed of thier actions even though they continue them and tell no one of thier activities in this regard. She probably is quite depressed also since she probably hates herself a bit also because of what she has done and her lack of control of the situation and this can cause depression which will want her to continue using the substance to make herself feel better which actually makes it worse by reinforcing the destructive cycle.
This is common occurance for a lot of people who are highly addicted to hardcore addictive drugs and even treatment doesn't work a lot of times in curing them.
I could very well be wrong on this but if you know she uses these types of drugs you are taking a chance being with her sexually because not all sexual deseases are spread through the reproductive glands and some are highly contagious and can even mame or kill you eventually.
You may have a choice to make also if you think she's is hurting herself from this activity with the drugs if they are the adictive kind. You could ignor the problem and continue as always, you could intervene and get her to treatment if you think that is warranted but I'll warn you now if it isn't then she'll probably hate you for the embarrassment you will cause her, and lastly you could just not be with her anymore and protect yourself and move on with your life.
I'm not there and can't see the situation as you see it so my advice should be judged by yourself in it's validity to any of the points I've made, but if any of it applies also remember to temper it with your experience and wisdom of the situation and not to make a rash decision which I doubt you will since you posted here asking for advice in the first place looking for help in this situation.
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Hey, I wouldn't date a crack whore.

I'm worried she could become worse if she keeps doing what she's doing. Right now she's 20, is a working gemologist, and still has remnants of a good life. I haven't seen her in a few weeks. If she lets herself get that fucked up, I certainly won't be around to watch. I'm on the elevator going up.

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> I'm sorry but I hate woman that use there looks to get there
> way and consider most of them spoiled little bitches using
> there looks to get what they want and it seems from what he
> said she does that

i just didn't get that from what he said.

but anyway, we all use various methods at our disposal to get what we want. its human nature. smart people use their brains, and yeah, often goodlooking people use their looks. i really dont see why this is a bad thing in moderation. men do it too, it isnt restricted to women. of course, if the person is overdoing it to the extent that they expect the world handed to them on a silver platter just because they are beautiful, that person would piss me off too. but i didnt think that was all that was going on here. and anyway, people like that usually learn from simple experience that they arent going to get their way forever. well, unless theyre goodlooking and rich and extremely intelligent. i knew a guy like that. he had everything going for him, but he was so unbearably obnoxious and proud that people just couldnt be friends with him for any significant period of time.

and girls like that don't ever face the
> REAL world because when you have looks it's like a crutch
> till age rips that crutch out from under their shallow asses
> and then it's a whole new situation.

if all they do is count on their looks and all they think about is how to make themselves look better, then that sucks for them. and yeah, theyll just learn their lesson eventually. but i doubt that people really rely only on their looks - i certainly didnt get that impression from this girl type x is talking about. anyway, if everybody makes the best of what they have while they have it, i for one dont have a problem with that.



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> This has been going on for almost four years. I love her
> and I wish she could change, I have certainly made plenty of
> compromises to try and make her happy. She's the one who
> can't stop using drugs and disappearing with shady people.
> When I first met her, she had never done things like this.
> Her whole life focus was on school, acting, and singing.

> Something went wrong a few years ago when she made some bad
> friends. All I want is for her to stop hurting herself and
> put her talents to use.

That really sucks. Seems like you've been really good to her, and you'd be really good for her too. The drugs are probably fucking things up more than anything else. I hope things get better for her, but my advice would be not to stick around if she's really getting into the whole drug thing. It sucks that you should have to do that though... hope she can work things out. I guess the situation needs some compromise on her part now. Good luck.


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>my advice would be not to
> stick around if she's really getting into the whole drug
> thing. It sucks that you should have to do that though...
> hope she can work things out. I guess the situation needs
> some compromise on her part now. Good luck.

Yeah, it's been a while since I've seen her. I wish it were as easy as letting go, I'm so worried about her. Oh this sucks to admit but I drove by her dad's house last night to see if her car was outside... it wasn't. That's been bothering me ever since.

This is the second time we have broken up, the last time was for almost two years. When I was seeing other people for that time, all I could think about was how much more I loved her. She really has her claws in me. Sucks.


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> anyway, if everybody
> makes the best of what they have while they have it, i for
> one dont have a problem with that.
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>i certainly didnt get that impression from
> this girl type x is talking about. anyway, if everybody
> makes the best of what they have while they have it, i for
> one dont have a problem with that.

My ex has so much going for her and she doesn't even realize it. She was well on her way to becoming a professional singer and actress. What a shame she opted to pursue gemology instead. I mean, she makes decent money doing what she does, but she has an amazing vocal talent that's going to waste. I used to play guitar and let her sing, I even wrote songs for her. One in a million young women are blessed with a voice and looks like hers. It brings me to tears when I hear her sing. And she is so beautiful... she looks a lot like a young Sandra Bullock. She stopped going to theatre auditions about two years ago, right when she started with the self-destructive behavior. Can you tell how much this hurts me?

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