SwampGas
09-24-2003, 09:14 PM
there's a lot of bullshit that i don't discuss.....granted, i'm a very open person....but some things are nobody's business. obviously it's becoming a problem and making me an angry, bitter person.
they think my grandmother has cbgd. it's a degenerative neurological disorder. you lose control of your body...can't walk...start to forget words...you get alien hands...you forget how to cough and how to swallow. it's not mental, though. you KNOW you can't do it...it's not like alzheimer's. so it progresses to the point (if you make it that long) that you just sit in a daze all day unable to control anything....but you KNOW you're just sitting there...like you're in a zombie body that doesn't work.
there's a decent write up of what it was like for one person: http://www.tornadodesign.com/cbgd/theresaroberts.htm
things aren't exactly the same...like she can still write fairly well (i get a check from them and it's her handwriting) and she can eat. she's forgetting words, though...and she hasn't walked on her own for over a year.
i idolized these people. out of my entire family, i strive to be exactly like them....i'm serious. as far back as i can remember they've always been the favorite grandparents. they were both teachers....grandmother was a math teacher in high school and my grandfather was principal and eventually vice superindent of the district.
alright..i'm fucking done discussing it. now i'm fucking pissed off again <img src=smilies/angryfire.gif>
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they think my grandmother has cbgd. it's a degenerative neurological disorder. you lose control of your body...can't walk...start to forget words...you get alien hands...you forget how to cough and how to swallow. it's not mental, though. you KNOW you can't do it...it's not like alzheimer's. so it progresses to the point (if you make it that long) that you just sit in a daze all day unable to control anything....but you KNOW you're just sitting there...like you're in a zombie body that doesn't work.
there's a decent write up of what it was like for one person: http://www.tornadodesign.com/cbgd/theresaroberts.htm
things aren't exactly the same...like she can still write fairly well (i get a check from them and it's her handwriting) and she can eat. she's forgetting words, though...and she hasn't walked on her own for over a year.
i idolized these people. out of my entire family, i strive to be exactly like them....i'm serious. as far back as i can remember they've always been the favorite grandparents. they were both teachers....grandmother was a math teacher in high school and my grandfather was principal and eventually vice superindent of the district.
alright..i'm fucking done discussing it. now i'm fucking pissed off again <img src=smilies/angryfire.gif>
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