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mrfreeze
09-23-2003, 08:05 AM
It is currently 4:07 in the morning where I live. I am in one of the most fucked up series of mood swings I have had in as long as I can remember, and am just going nuts.
I have been alternating between being so damn depressed that I start crying my eyes out to being in a relatively good mood for the past 4 hours now, and it is driving me mad. If music is any indication of mood, I am downloading the best of Black Sabbath, while also getting all of System of a Down (I don't know why, I own 2 of the 3 cds already), and the entire stone sour album.

Not to mentoin that emotionally I am currently fucking confused, due to a long weekend of arguments and anger that have left me both physically and emotionally spent. But instead of geting some rest which would probably be best, I am pulling an all nighter in order to go to school 7 hours before my first class in order to do the homework I should have done over the weekend.

So in short, I am merely ranting myself out on here in order to bring some small amount of stability to things. If you actually took the time to read this crap, I thank you.

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SpaceTiger
09-23-2003, 08:16 AM
It is currently the same time here as it is there and I am working on a project that I don't care about for an advisor with inflated expectations for a degree I don't think I even want. My mood has been more stable since I met Fairy (bless her heart), but I still keep the most fucked up hours. Oh, and did I mention that I spent the last week or so sleeping in my office? Why? Because I was too fucking lazy to bike home.

I'm tired, overworked, unmotivated, and very hungry. I can (and probably will) graduate and get some boring-ass job that makes me a shitload of money, none of which I'll have time to use. I may be in a privileged position, but what difference does it make if I'm not happy?

Anyway man, I feel your pain. Sorry to use your thread, but it got me in the ranting mood.

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mrfreeze
09-23-2003, 08:23 AM
> I'm tired, overworked, unmotivated, and very hungry. I can
> (and probably will) graduate and get some boring-ass job
> that makes me a shitload of money, none of which I'll have
> time to use. I may be in a privileged position, but what
> difference does it make if I'm not happy?

> Anyway man, I feel your pain. Sorry to use your thread, but
> it got me in the ranting mood.
>
Well man, if you ever want to unload a shitload of money which you have no use for, I know someone who could find uses quite easily. And trust me, I know how you feel. I quickly found out Computer Science is not anywhere near as easy or fun as I originally thought, but I am already so damn far in debt I may as well see it through. Hopefully my (wanted) minor in Japanese will allow me more freedom to enjoy myself.

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SpaceTiger
09-23-2003, 08:28 AM
> Well man, if you ever want to unload a shitload of money
> which you have no use for, I know someone who could find
> uses quite easily.

Honestly, I would probably be very heavily into giving gifts and loans if I had more money than I knew what to do with. If I weren't still in grad school, I would even donate to the "Send Kirsten to Australia/New Zealand Fund!" <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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anti-corporate
09-24-2003, 12:44 AM
are you bipolar (manic depressive) or just stressed?

try taking a nap when you get some free time, usually does wonders

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wingless
09-24-2003, 01:53 AM
> are you bipolar (manic depressive) or just stressed?

hah. i knew someone would bring that up. funny. or not.

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HerrSkofild
09-24-2003, 02:20 AM
> If you actually took the time to read this crap, I thank you.
>

yes, i did read through it, and, it is not crap...i hope you feel better soon...

note - to all of you whom have posted similar (anything to do with the fact that X person feels like shit) things: i am sorry i have not replied to any of it...i am a little shy about posting, as, i feel most of what i have to say would be useless to anyone, i am starting to think this post will be just but a waste to all who read it...

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Kuikorosu
09-24-2003, 06:28 AM
] It is currently 4:07 in the morning where I live. I am in
] one of the most fucked up series of mood swings I have had
] in as long as I can remember, and am just going nuts.
] I have been alternating between being so damn depressed that
] I start crying my eyes out to being in a relatively good
] mood for the past 4 hours now, and it is driving me mad.

I hate to break this to you, but you're turning into a woman.

I suggest you go hit something, grunt and roar loudly, listen to loud, heavy music, and drink straight from the milk carton. NOW! GO!

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mrfreeze
09-24-2003, 03:30 PM
> I suggest you go hit something, grunt and roar loudly,
> listen to loud, heavy music, and drink straight from the
> milk carton. NOW! GO!
>
lets see. Loud heavy music: check, drinking straight from carton: check, feeling a hell of a lot better now that I finally got some goddamn sleep: check. Whoo!


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