Finally found out

[lord_steak]

...if my child would have been a son or daughter. Talked to who would've been the mother. She said she called the clinic about it and asked. I would have had a daughter.

This just kills me, even though it's three years later. I've wanted a daughter for so long. I mean, I've wanted one since I was fifteen, or maybe even younger. I don't know why. All I know for sure is that I've wanted a little girl of my own for years. That whole experience...tore me up horridly. I knew I had a shot at one I've always wanted, and knowing then that she wasn't ready at all, and had ruled out adoption.... I don't know how far I would've fallen into depression had I known I would have had a girl. I was already deep enough in.

I know I would've been waiting and watching for her 18^<u>th</u> birthday, had we choosen adoption (which was my suggesiton, 'cuz we were by no means able to support a child). She would have been two now, and been old enough to give me hell about anything and everything. I know this, and yet, I still want it more than I can express.

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[wingless]

> ...if my child would have been a son or daughter. Talked to
> who would've been the mother. She said she called the
> clinic about it and asked. I would have had a daughter.

aww, i'm sorry to hear about that. i cant fully understand because i've never been in a situation like that. i'm sorry, though.

you may have a girl someday, though. you're still young. life isn't over yet.

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