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HerrSkofild

08-21-2003, 03:53 AM

*sigh* i was going over this in my head for the past few nights...i am lonely...i need someone...someone to hold, and to hold me...someone to tell me 'it will be alright'...a shoulder to cry on...someone to be there...just anyone...i have no one...no one...i have had no one for years...maybe this is the reason i hate the world...i am unsure how much longer i can go on like this...i do not know what to do...

With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

shawn

08-21-2003, 03:57 AM

It's been 9 years for me and I've been feeling the same way and have come to one conclusion. Get off the computer and go get laid and go from there, simple. <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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HerrSkofild

08-21-2003, 04:05 AM

no job, no car, deep hate for everyone in town...i am not looking for sex anyway...

With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

puduhead

08-21-2003, 04:08 AM

Have you had many girlfriends? Cuz that's a common feeling when you lack those experiences.

Me, I'm alone. No one holds me at night. I even had to give up my cat when I had to move. <img src=smilies/cry.gif>

But, I'm not losing much sleep over being lonely in the female company sense. Because I have experienced enough to know what a headache that can be. Not women, but the challenge of keeping a commited relationship together.

Whenever I get to feeling too lonely, I just remember how fucking hard it was in relationships (no pun intended please!) and then I'm feeling infinitely better.

btw, I'm still open to relationships. But I'm a lot less concerned about when it happens.

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HerrSkofild

08-21-2003, 04:15 AM

ok, what is with the whole female only thing...I AM BI!!!!

i have had a girlfriend...she was a psycho...like psycho psycho...i sorta shy away from girls a little now...

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shawn

08-21-2003, 04:35 AM

> no job, no car, deep hate for everyone in town...i am not
> looking for sex anyway...
>
Gee, I have no car and no job, and I think you can find someone you haven't met and getting laid doesn't require a car or a job, just a dick and someone willing to let you use it on them so quit making excuses and get out there or it's your own fault and no one else. I've gone for years but I got sick of the one night stand scene and needed the time but after a while I just got complacent and just said fuckit, but it was my choice and fault I didn't get laid and no one elses so take responsibility and realize it's your fault and if everyone hates you then you must have done something *attitude counts* to deserve this or they're all wrong, but I find it hard to believe an entire town can be wrong so you either did something or your perception of your situation is wrong and if that is the case *think honestly and carefully about it* then you may want to seek professional help and there are state and federal programs that are there to help people with funding to get this help. So stop feeling sorry for yourself because that is useless and calmly assess you situation and then take action. <img src=smilies/cwm11.gif>

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HerrSkofild

08-21-2003, 04:48 AM

yes yes yes...i knew i was gonna get a response like this...i also feel very selfish feeling sorry about myself...i normally could not give a fuck...ehn...ima start not carring again...

With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

shawn

08-21-2003, 05:13 AM

> yes yes yes...i knew i was gonna get a response like
> this...i also feel very selfish feeling sorry about
> myself...i normally could not give a fuck...ehn...ima start
> not carring again...

Wrong, your gonna get off your ass and your gonna do something about this, sounds like depression could be your problem. Get to a doctor and they'll set you up with an antidepressant, and it no big deal, he'll ask you a few questions and just do a few basic tests and set you up with some pills, I think welfare or some organization in your town is required to help you out with something like this, you should check, you could be happy again in a few days tops, you can get the pills in a day and the first few days you'll sleep a lot, I slept for 14 hrs for the first 3 days on zoloft. Now do something because it obvious lack of action has put you here and will keep you here, it's your move now. <img src=smilies/cwm11.gif>

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HerrSkofild

08-21-2003, 05:20 AM

>depression

a word made up by doctors and the pharmesutical companies to make more money

> antidepressant
> some pills

you see, the thing is, i am sorta against taking drugs for anything that is not a physical problem...

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Mr. Saturn

08-21-2003, 05:23 AM

> a word made up by doctors and the pharmesutical companies to
> make more money

Load of fucking bullshit.

What is a cynic? A man who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.
-Oscar Wilde

Octocrook

08-21-2003, 05:23 AM

> i have had a girlfriend...she was a psycho...like psycho
> psycho...i sorta shy away from girls a little now...

I've had 2. 1 was a psycho, the other was a cheating bitch. I'm in the same exact boat as you. Probably the best thing you can do is be open about meeting new people, and find things to do that you like in which you will meet people. The more people you meet, the likelier you'll meet a cool chick or guy (edit: didn't notice the first line of your post...don't ask how, it's late!)

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shawn

08-21-2003, 05:34 AM

> >depression
>
> a word made up by doctors and the pharmesutical companies to
> make more money

I used to think that before my mother died, my aunt pushed me till I went to the doctor and he gave me some zoloft, I was really clinically depressed for months, maybe even years cause she had cancer for years before she died. Don't just say it's crap like that, some people think the same about pot but they are so wrong it's scary. Sure you'll be a little out of it till it becomes accustomed to the pills but it only lasted for about 2 weeks for me and after that I felt happy like I used to when I was a kid, and not a drug type happy, a real happy, it was like waking up from a long dream to find out your life has passed you by for years. See your doctor, I'm not about to bullshit you on this, just because you don't see your doctor doesn't mean you don't have a problem, just means your afraid to admit it and are making up excuses. Face your problem and let your doctor help you fix it, this isn't a drug you need to take for your whole life but just for a year or so till it balances out the chemicals in your brain and in the process you get your life back together so when you stop taking the pill you'll still be happy because that life that you have set up is a good one and that makes you happy and you'll probably have a woman to go with it.
Will someone back me on this opinion, I really believe this is the proper course of action. <img src=smilies/cwm11.gif>

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puduhead

08-21-2003, 05:52 AM

> ok, what is with the whole female only thing...I AM BI!!!!

WELL I AM SORRY. date a guy. maybe that's your answer. actually, it probably is. women are in too much demand. http://www.zophar.net/wwwthreads/smilies/magbiggrin.gif

> i have had a girlfriend...she was a psycho...like psycho
> psycho...i sorta shy away from girls a little now...

well, don't let a bad apple taint the whole bushel.

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puduhead

08-21-2003, 05:59 AM

> >depression
>
> a word made up by doctors and the pharmesutical companies to
> make more money

No dude. It's ok to need help for it. Not everyone takes anti-depressants. I did for a little while. But counseling is what helped me the most. Positive thinking, as fucking retarded as it sounds, is really a great thing to develop for yourself.

> > antidepressant
> > some pills
>
> you see, the thing is, i am sorta against taking drugs for
> anything that is not a physical problem..

How noble of you. No seriuosly, that's good. I'm sure too many ppl rely on them as a crutch. I know I didn't want to so I got off them as soon as I could. But remember, when a doctor prescribes them, it may actually be a beneficial thing to try.

I so agree that there is far too much use of psychotropic drugs these days. Hell, I live in the fucking capital of psychotropic drug use in the nation - Utah. HAhahahah.

Just don't be totally closed off to the potential short term benfits to get you back on your feet. Of course, random ppl on a message board don't make those recommendations. And the smart person will see a regular pyschologist first. Who will then help determine if you should be referred to a psychiatrist for evaluation.

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Disch

08-21-2003, 06:49 PM

Who thinks antidepressants are terrible? /wwwthreads/images/icons/tongue.gif

I was on them for a while and they fucked with me considerably. I would recommend you exhaust all other options before you try popping some "magic pill" to solve all your problems.

MooglyGuy

08-21-2003, 06:56 PM

> Who thinks antidepressants are terrible?

Certainly not me.

> I was on them for a while and they fucked with me
> considerably. I would recommend you exhaust all other
> options before you try popping some "magic pill" to solve
> all your problems.

I think antidepressants are rather glorified, to be honest. Given the right dosage and the right type (I'm on 100mg of Zoloft daily), what it's supposed to do is just take the edge of. It doesn't completely get rid of depression and make everything sunshine and rainbows. What it does do is take the edge off of it, which could mean the difference between jumping and not jumping, so to speak. If you're on antidepressants, you should still see a psychiatrist to try to work through your problems, but as I said, the antidepressants can mean the difference between even being able to bring yourself to get out of bed to see the psychiatrist, or not.

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Octocrook

08-21-2003, 07:06 PM

> Who thinks antidepressants are terrible?

*raises hand* I've been on and off depression for many years now, and the last thing I'm ever gonna to is start a dependency on a drug. I bet half of what those drugs do is simply in the person's mind anyways...I mean they take the drug, thinking that they'll get better, and while the drug does some things, their mind tells them "It says I'll feel better, so I guess I do" and after a while, it's as if the drug really is making them feel better. I dunno...I just don't think there is anyone with emotional problems that truly NEEDS a drug to survive, unless it's a disease or something that causes those problems and some drug cures it.

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shawn

08-21-2003, 11:08 PM

> #6: Limit masturbation. Yes, I'm serious. Masturbating too
> much will cause and/or increase depression.

I've cut down to 20 hrs a week, is that to much? <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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puduhead

08-22-2003, 09:17 AM

#7: Getting laid

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Reaper man

08-22-2003, 01:52 PM

> #7: Getting laid

yep, best cure for depression <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>

but if you lose the girl, you'll feel even worse <img src=smilies/cwm10.gif>

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HerrSkofild

08-23-2003, 12:15 AM

>.With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

Reaper man

08-24-2003, 02:39 AM

> >.<
>
> i have already said i am not looking to get laid!

hey that was pudus' idea! <img src=smilies/erm.gif>

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Crazy_MYKL

08-26-2003, 12:24 AM

I know Skofild and there is no way he'd go to a Chrisitian church.

HerrSkofild

08-26-2003, 12:57 AM

> I know Skofild and there is no way he'd go to a Chrisitian
> church.
>

uhm...there is no way i would go to any church...

With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

Phoenix

08-26-2003, 01:00 AM

> It's been 9 years for me and I've been feeling the same way
> and have come to one conclusion. Get off the computer and go
> get laid and go from there, simple.
>
Wow.. Shawn.. Tha's so profound.
You should be governor of California ;)

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shawn

08-26-2003, 01:10 AM

> Wow.. Shawn.. Tha's so profound.
> You should be governor of California ;)

Will you be my running mate? <img src=smilies/liefde.gif>

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Phoenix

08-26-2003, 03:12 AM

> Will you be my running mate?
>
Of course. You run ---> that way. And I'll run ^ this way. Ok?

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HerrSkofild

08-26-2003, 03:13 AM

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With rue and fire, all demons are cast away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive you once again.

shawn

08-26-2003, 04:59 AM

> > Will you be my running mate?
> >
> Of course. You run ---> that way. And I'll run ^ this way.
> Ok?

hahahahhahahaha, I've been burned hard. <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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