i guess we're back together

[SwampGas]

she came over this evening...and we chatted again.

everytime i see her, i'm totally head over heels. it's not just her physical appearance...it's more than that.

so we kind of cuddled together...discussed things...talked about the future...

she got a little choked up at some points, but started crying when i rubbed her arm and hugged her and stuff...

she said there's some strange feeling she gets when i touch her...

then she proceeded to ask to "make love". she said she desperately needed the feeling of someone who really loved her to try and get rid of the "horror" that she went through the other week.

despite the fact she screwed another man....we did. and for some reason, what happened didn't bother me as much as i thought it would. while we were in the act, it didn't even cross my mind once. all that mattered was that i was physically exhibiting my love.

well, she ended up going twice before i was able to put the condom on...then we both went. first time in a long time that she went that many times in like 30 secs.

so i dunno what to think...i'm not really bothered by this other guy at all...sure, i still get angry...but that lasts like 5 secs and then goes away.

we never really established whether we were bf/gf again...i'm just assuming we are.

but see...everyone knows i have high morals and strict values...stuff that i don't break. did i do something immoral by doing what i did? was it unethical? was it wrong? i don't get it...we've been having sex for over 2 years now..and each time, i never have ANY doubt or indecision. it feels right every single time. including this time. it's to the point where it's not a big thing anymore...it's a regular and healthy part of the relationship in which we express love in a physical manner.

i'm so in love with this girl and i don't know why...she just makes me happy for no reason...when she's around, all the problems and bad feelings go away. i guess that's that thing called "love".

i was going to take rebuilding the relationship one step at a time...to me, i did take one step at a time. we talked everything out, did something to consecrate the relationship, and now i'm going to go with her to her counselor to repair the rest of the problems.

bah..now i'm rambling.

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[Fla Flash]

Take it slow, though. I wish you well on this Sam. You need a break.

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[Vampiro]

> and now i'm going to go with her to her
> counselor to repair the rest of the problems.

Thats a good plan, maybe this will be the start of something better..

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[Jathys]

>and now i'm going to go with her to her counselor to repair
>the rest of the problems.

I wish the counselor luck in "fixing" her, rather than coming up with a simple solution that will undo itself. Don't mean to sound like the pessimist here, but I dated a manic depressant for a 3 year time period.

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[shawn]

> >and now i'm going to go with her to her counselor to repair
>
> >the rest of the problems.
>
> I wish the counselor luck in "fixing" her, rather than
> coming up with a simple solution that will undo itself.
> Don't mean to sound like the pessimist here, but I dated a
> manic depressant for a 3 year time period.
>

Actually from what Sam has stated in the last few weeks the best thing she could actually do is get rid of all those friends of hers, sounds like their the cause of almost all the problems and I'm guessing one of them was the one she slept with to. :)

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[GamerX]

Bad move. Very bad move. Like I just said in another post - don't complain when things go bad again. You've now brough it upon yourself. It's not her fault anymore - you took her back after that shit. Jesus I hope this works out some way for you Sam. Good luck - it seems like you need it all.

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[Octocrook]

> i guess that's that
> thing called "love".

Make sure it's not:

- Anti-loneliness. Trust me on this...loneliness messes with your mind. It almost messed with mine after my ex dumped me, but I didn't let it. I'm glad I didn't, cuz she cheated on the next guy a few times.

- The fact that you've been with her for 2 years, so there's more "happy" time than "sad" time. That will change if she keeps on cheating on you, and chances are she will. She's already done it twice and you're still together...she will see this as being able to "get away with it". Most people are animals...we'd like to fuck any and every hot chick we see, especially if they all had good personalities, but we learn honor and faithfulness as we grow up and find out that it would be a bad thing to do. Some people don't learn that fact very well...they see an opportunity, they take it. It's hard for these people to change after they've grown up, because it's past the "child-rearing" time. What I'm getting at is that she's seen that she can get away with it...she's gotten away with it twice. Just remember that will ALWAYS be in the back of her mind...otherwise she would have never cheated on you.

Good luck to you Sam.

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