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03-29-2002, 05:00 AM
I made my little speech at the memorial service tonight, and yes, I've had three beers, so if my spelling is incorrect, then my apologies. This is how it went:
I only had 8 months to get to know Beth. I know most of you didn't have that much time either (this was a memorial service-she's being buried up north where most of her family is). I think we all were cheated. Beth never did anything purposefully mean, or mistreated anyone or anything as long as I have known her. I've spent the last 5 days asking myself something: Why is she gone? I may have, by accident, found the answer myself.
My mom once told me that people can only die after they pass something on to someone. After getting off the phone with my mom yesterday, explaining to her what happened, she repeated the same damned thing to me.
But here's the sad part.
She's right.
Bethany, my one drive away from computers, was taken from me because of me.
She taught me what love was really all about.
She was selfless, kind, and she could make a room light up.
Here's the best part.
She's not really gone. As long as one ounce, one skin cell, one onemillionth of my body, mind, soul or whatever remembers her. She's not gone.
She's with me all the time. She carved a spot in my heart that won't heal until I see her again. I close my eyes and see her next to me. I breathe the air in my house, and yes, I smell her everywhere.
No one ever dies if your heart doesn't let them. My heart won't let her die. I may live fast, but I love long. Beth lives on...
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I only had 8 months to get to know Beth. I know most of you didn't have that much time either (this was a memorial service-she's being buried up north where most of her family is). I think we all were cheated. Beth never did anything purposefully mean, or mistreated anyone or anything as long as I have known her. I've spent the last 5 days asking myself something: Why is she gone? I may have, by accident, found the answer myself.
My mom once told me that people can only die after they pass something on to someone. After getting off the phone with my mom yesterday, explaining to her what happened, she repeated the same damned thing to me.
But here's the sad part.
She's right.
Bethany, my one drive away from computers, was taken from me because of me.
She taught me what love was really all about.
She was selfless, kind, and she could make a room light up.
Here's the best part.
She's not really gone. As long as one ounce, one skin cell, one onemillionth of my body, mind, soul or whatever remembers her. She's not gone.
She's with me all the time. She carved a spot in my heart that won't heal until I see her again. I close my eyes and see her next to me. I breathe the air in my house, and yes, I smell her everywhere.
No one ever dies if your heart doesn't let them. My heart won't let her die. I may live fast, but I love long. Beth lives on...
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