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06-22-2003, 01:10 AM
This time last year, I remember making a post regarding how upset I was with my mother's decision to sell the house and move to Pennsylvania after I graduate from high school. Well, this coming Monday, June 23rd, is my high school graduation ceremony. Not much has changed regarding the situation, except that the house has been on the market for about three, maybe four months. I am still upset about the whole situation, because I'm not ready to leave everything I've ever known behind and start over. But during the last 365 days, I've grown to realize that the move shouldn't be too bad and that we're not moving after graduation, but when the house is sold.
So, that got me thinking...I could be here for another year or two (hopefully). But what really sucks is that I did not enroll in a local community college due to the fact that I was under the impression that upon graduation, I would join my family in our trek to PA and could not attend that college. However, and I am such an idiot for thinking of this recently, I should've enrolled in this college and when it came time to move, I could've transferred to a community college in PA. It wouldn't be a big deal if this WASN'T ABOUT MY FUTURE! Argh!
As it stands now, I'm here in New Jersey for "X" amount of time. I hope I just have enough time to short things out with my father, my friends, my vehicle, and a job before I move. I did plan on taking a year off after school and work anyway, but I would hate ending up to become a live-in bum.
As the clock ticks and time wastes away, I slowly begin to organize what I'm going to do in order to put my life back on track and prepare for the real world. The first order of business is finding either a second job to supplement my income at Dunkin' Donuts, or find a new job completely and work full time. It's hard to sort this out as I don't know when I will leave and would hate to land a dream job in Jersey only to quit in a matter of days just to move to PA.
What bothers most about the situation is how fast the past year flew by. I'm graduating on Monday. Monday. Wow. It seems like yesterday I entered high school and now I'm out. It just blows my mind. I wanted to do so much this year in terms of a steady job, a relationship, and a kick-ass vehicle. Well, I've somewhat accomplished those things, although in the wrong way. My relationship with Laura was a financial loss and a big heart ache, in my opinion Dunkin' Donuts is the reincarnation of the Third Reich, and my Blazer, well, I think I've documented my problems with that piece of shit on these boards rather extensively. I've grown closer to some friends, made new ones, turned ones away. Through it all though, there's been a select few that have been there for me when I needed it most. I guess that's something I should be happy to have established not only this past year, but subsequent years in Jersey: true friends who cared about me and were there for me.
I still can't get over the fact that I am now entering the "real world." Sheesh and I thought my life as it was now was Hell, fuck, I think I'm in for a bitch slap from God. I do believe I faced the worse and the rest should be smooth sailing compared to my formative years.
If you've made it this far, I appreciate that you actually read this somewhat mindless rant about my life up until now.
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So, that got me thinking...I could be here for another year or two (hopefully). But what really sucks is that I did not enroll in a local community college due to the fact that I was under the impression that upon graduation, I would join my family in our trek to PA and could not attend that college. However, and I am such an idiot for thinking of this recently, I should've enrolled in this college and when it came time to move, I could've transferred to a community college in PA. It wouldn't be a big deal if this WASN'T ABOUT MY FUTURE! Argh!
As it stands now, I'm here in New Jersey for "X" amount of time. I hope I just have enough time to short things out with my father, my friends, my vehicle, and a job before I move. I did plan on taking a year off after school and work anyway, but I would hate ending up to become a live-in bum.
As the clock ticks and time wastes away, I slowly begin to organize what I'm going to do in order to put my life back on track and prepare for the real world. The first order of business is finding either a second job to supplement my income at Dunkin' Donuts, or find a new job completely and work full time. It's hard to sort this out as I don't know when I will leave and would hate to land a dream job in Jersey only to quit in a matter of days just to move to PA.
What bothers most about the situation is how fast the past year flew by. I'm graduating on Monday. Monday. Wow. It seems like yesterday I entered high school and now I'm out. It just blows my mind. I wanted to do so much this year in terms of a steady job, a relationship, and a kick-ass vehicle. Well, I've somewhat accomplished those things, although in the wrong way. My relationship with Laura was a financial loss and a big heart ache, in my opinion Dunkin' Donuts is the reincarnation of the Third Reich, and my Blazer, well, I think I've documented my problems with that piece of shit on these boards rather extensively. I've grown closer to some friends, made new ones, turned ones away. Through it all though, there's been a select few that have been there for me when I needed it most. I guess that's something I should be happy to have established not only this past year, but subsequent years in Jersey: true friends who cared about me and were there for me.
I still can't get over the fact that I am now entering the "real world." Sheesh and I thought my life as it was now was Hell, fuck, I think I'm in for a bitch slap from God. I do believe I faced the worse and the rest should be smooth sailing compared to my formative years.
If you've made it this far, I appreciate that you actually read this somewhat mindless rant about my life up until now.
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