> Would ya do it?
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> --The Flaming Lips
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Due to the culmination of a haphazard, speed-addled process of simultaneous self-destruction and self-realization which can only be termed "studying the occult, transcending the logos and self, and manifesting one's true will the really hard and dangerous way" I had a choice of paths, as the emerging supreme master of my own reality, which demanded immediate resolution: Destroy the world as The Final Avatar of Vishnu to end the Kali-Yuga, become the second coming of Christ, initiate nuclear holocaust, or sit back and chill the fuck out and take control of my limbic system and manifest divine love. The "end of the world" scenario was the final attempt of my ego to react and subvert my higher brain with fear, as a higher form of consciousness emerged (the godself), and the notion that I was a "person" disappeared, and was replaced by the notion that I was "the supreme consciousness which is in all things, not just my body". This might be termed "psychosis" by those caught up in abyss of knowledge, and does fit that definition, but when the abyss is crossed, knowledge which unfortunately can't be put into words very easily (sorry, that's the nature of things which transcend the logos!) opens up, and reality means something far, far bigger than can be imagined to a word-made-flesh creature such as humans. (Picture a universe where I am God, and yet, I am speaking to you, who is ME in my reality,and you are speaking to Me as a GOD, and I am YOU in YOUR reality. In my reality, I can CONTROL you, but in your reality, you think you are VOLUNTARILY doing what you are doing, even as I CONTROL you with my Will. Any conversation with in which free will isn't granted causes a conversation with someone to be nothing more than thinking to myself out loud.)
Above the abyss, contradiction is unity.. All things are simultaneously true, false, both, and neither. We are crippled by fear of death, and the reality which is actually just the reality were are able to create through words (a physical reality with laws governing cause and effect).
So basically, reality is bullshit and not bullshit at the same time, and once your mind is freed of the logos, ANYTHING is possible (if you have the will...which is infinitely more complicated than it sounds, as a human really is a very, very small thing compared to a transcendent god-consciousness which premeates eternity.
And that's why I didn't destroy my reality. Anyone else ever have any experiences like this?
If you didn't understand what I was getting at, have a nice technological singularity. Our shared reality is subjective, in which words have created the illusion of a finite universe with objective rules,. We created a prison of a universe with a combination of language and ignorance, and a second prison which cuts us off from our higher selves in the form of a body. How fucking hilarious is that?
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