Is there somthing in the air?

[Goku]

Like JCE3000GT I have been depressed also. Extrememly depressed. I actually surpassed the notion of thinking about suicide to physically cutting my wrist. I just started, but i stopped before i went further. It was also to high on the wrist to do any real damage.

The thing is, I lost hope, lost meaning. Religion for me does not do it eihter. I cannot take the bible literally and follow it to the letter because, well lets face it, it was written by men. The old testament is also a series of recorded oral stories. Oral stories change!

Its diffiicult. Also, lately my life has taken not a turn for the worse, but is unfulfilling. Right now, my existance means living in a small town wiht my parents. No such a bad thing because it serves a purpose. Im paying for school now and making a good wage too while i wait for next semester.

The thing is I have utterly no social life. Most people my age have long ago left this town. There are no women either ofcours which is a problem. I am just so bored. Ofcourse, there are other factors like, say, being completely unfulfilled! I always felt there is a greater meaning to my life but right now my life is toiling around in non existance. Its..very.......disconcerting.

So, well, this is not Everything. The other factor im not willing to talk about..well dont want too. *cough* *cough* fucken women!

Well, I guess depression is in the air. Actually, when i seriously thought about killing myself i was in very rough shape. I had slept 3 hours of very disturbed sleep in 72 hours. *L* I was not good, not good at all!

Im fine now i guess. I still dont have meaning. I wouldnt care if i died tommorrow. Thats life i guess.

Have a great one people!

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GO TO FUCKEN HELL ASSHOLE!

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[MooglyGuy]

What's "fucking hell"? How can I go there? Is it hell because there's lots of fucking, or is it hell because there's no fucking at all, and everyone has to jerk off furiously?

On a more serious note, don't kill yourself, dude. I've felt just as depressed before, but for as corny as it sounds, life gets better.

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[RedXIII]

Why yes. There are many things in the air. Planes and birds for instance. Flys and bees. Don't forget clouds.

Also check these links for more information on what's in the air.

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http://www.geocities.com/HotSprings/Oasis/3710/air_quality.html

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[Disch]

> Like JCE3000GT I have been depressed also.

Them's the breaks. I've been there (may still be.. unsure right now.. guess I'm in a 'high' /wwwthreads/images/icons/tongue.gif). Most people go through it actually (so I'm finding out from people I meet).


> Extrememly depressed. I actually surpassed the notion of thinking
> about suicide to physically cutting my wrist.

I never took it that far... though I wanted too. I just couldn't stop thinking about how it would put other people through even worse shit than I was going through.

Your parents for example. Unless they're super-human... if they're around you and for the most part sharing your lifestyle... chances are they are experiencing some rough times also (that kind of thing is contageous). Imaging how much shittier you would feel if your parents just up and died one day. Now multiply that by 50... and that's how your parents would feel. I couldn't put my family through that... if I could I would have closed the deal long ago.

But it's just a phase. Eventually you will come to realize that suicide isn't even a solution at all. Sure it's a release... but at what cost? You would lose more than you gain (whether you realize that or not now... you will... you just gotta make it through your current slump).

> I just started, but i stopped before i went further. It was also
> to high on the wrist to do any real damage.

Slitting your wrist is a bad way to do it. Painfull, messy, slow, agonizing, and scarey as hell. Not to mention super-traumatic for the person who finds you.

I never once considered that as a method.


> The thing is, I lost hope, lost meaning.

Or maybe you just haven't found it yet?

That's how I feel a lot of times. Like "what the fuck am I doing?", etc. Logically... you don't need to worry about trivial shit such as this... but then again, nobody said depression was logical.

> Religion for me does not do it eihter.

I think I'll skip this section /wwwthreads/images/icons/tongue.gif


> Its diffiicult. Also, lately my life has taken not a turn
> for the worse, but is unfulfilling.

Could it be school? I don't think I'm the norm by any means... but school played serious fucking hell on my emotions. Maybe you could pay more attention to the areas of your life that bring on the most problems and try to break away from them... not easy, I know.

Don't make the same mistake I did, though... I figured out (or rather... was told) what brings on the most problems for me.... and now whenever I see those scenerios happening, I totally freak out and make the experience 10x worse what it normally would be.... so maybe ignorance is your friend on this one. I'm still unsure.

> The thing is I have utterly no social life.

Ditto. I avoid social contact, actually. Though it forces itself onto me a lot of times /wwwthreads/images/icons/tongue.gif

> I am just so bored.

That says it all. I know exactly what that means and how that's making you feel. Unfortunatly I don't have any clue as to how to 'fix' it other than to just wait it out. But rest assured it does pass.

> Ofcourse, there are other factors like, say, being completely
> unfulfilled!

To me the two go hand in hand. I mean if you're constantly bored, how can you be fullfilled, right? /wwwthreads/images/icons/wink.gif. Again... don't really know how to get over this. All I can give you is my sympathy and understanding.

> I always felt there is a greater meaning to my
> life but right now my life is toiling around in non
> existance. Its..very.......disconcerting.

You differ from me on this part. I never really cared about that /wwwthreads/images/icons/tongue.gif. Everything is relative. If you say you're not important at all.. sure that's going to be true on some scales... but you're very important on other scales (like your immediate family and your actions by your remaining friends ). You do make a very large impact on their life... whether you realize it now or not.

But saying "what good am I doing for the world" is completely rediculous.. since no one person can contribute a meaningfull amount of worth to the world. It's a group effort... and your part in that effort is no smaller than anyone elses.

> So, well, this is not Everything. The other factor im not
> willing to talk about..well dont want too. *cough* *cough*
> fucken women!

I'm there... and have been there my whole life. I first viewed it as a problem... but now I don't give a flying fuck... it's not worth the stress as far as I'm concerned. I get some shit from my friends about it (or rather got.. they all understand now) ... some people think I'm gay... but what the fuck ever. If I'm not into sex at this point in my life... then I'm not into it. Ain't nothing wrong with that... no matter how many jocks tell me otherwise.

Same goes to you. Don't feel bad because you don't live up to what RandomPersonJoe considers to be normal sexual behavior. Every person has different sex drives. Personally I'd rather have no interest in sex than be sex-crazed.


> Well, I guess depression is in the air.

Heh... my sister thinks it ties in with Western culture. When a third of the population needs anti-depressants to cope with socity... [i]something must be wrong.

> I had slept 3 hours of very disturbed sleep in 72
> hours. *L* I was not good, not good at all!

I was never able to sleep. I blamed it on the Caffeine... but now that I'm feeling a little better lately I have been noticing improvment.

So again.. just wait it out.


> Have a great one people!

Right back at ya. I know it's hard sometimes... but just stick around. There are lots and lots of peopl (more than you're probably thinking) that are/were/are going to be in the exact same shoes you're in right now... so you don't need to feel like you're alone on this one. <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>

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[blackize]

Man, don't go cutting yourself, you gain nothing but lose everything if you mess up. Trust me, I know where you're coming from, months ago when I was with Laura, I used to cut myself - a lot. I have scars on my chest, arms, abdomen, legs, and one on my forehead. Cutting is not the answer for depression, and I don't know what is. What I do know is this: suicide is not the answer, too.

I've contemplated suicide and I've tried almost a dozen times, too, however I am still here and thus it has not worked for me. You may think suicide is the answer to your problems, however, it is a door for more problems to enter. If you did kill yourself, granted your misery and suffering may be over, but think about what your death will do to others. Would you want to hurt your friends and family that way? Especially if there was no apparent motive for doing so, the ones you care about and those who care about you might think that he or she was the reason you killed yourself. Suicide isn't the answer.

I've said it before and I will say it again, what I found that helped me through my depression was getting together with my closest friends and talking about my problems and opening my mind to their insights. It works. It's not going to cure you overnight, but in the long run, talking about everything helps.

> The other factor im not willing to talk about..well dont want too. *cough* *cough* fucken women!

That was my cause of depression and it came in the disguise of Laura. Women are tricky and you got to be careful with them. I'm not saying all women are bad, I'm just saying that some can seriously fuck with you. I've had experience. If you ever want to talk about it, you can send me a private message. It will remain confidential.

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[Quasius]

> The thing is, I lost hope, lost meaning. Religion for me
> does not do it eihter. I cannot take the bible literally
> and follow it to the letter because, well lets face it, it
> was written by men.

It is not meant to be taken literaly. Because it was written by men, with their imiltations, but inspired by God.

> The old testament is also a series of
> recorded oral stories. Oral stories change!

But there is often meaning in those stories.

> I always felt there is a greater meaning to my
> life but right now my life is toiling around in non
> existance. Its..very.......disconcerting.

That does not ean you don't have a purpose. You just may still be looking for it.

> Well, I guess depression is in the air. Actually, when i
> seriously thought about killing myself i was in very rough
> shape. I had slept 3 hours of very disturbed sleep in 72
> hours. *L* I was not good, not good at all!

Just remember that no one can ever tell yopu what tomorrow will bring.

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[Goku]

*grinz* I could of told you the other day what tommorrow would bring! *L* Oh its not funny to joke about but..hey, if i am not depressed that is how i handle stuff!

Seriously, the god question does eat at me these days. I am not like you though. Well i dont even know you. I just know my friend Deby outlook on life and her influence from christianity seems to be similar to yours. And no offence, some of you conservative opinions at times strike me as morally wrong! Well, no offence, what a stupid statment eh? Ofcourse your going to be offended. Just remember it is only my opinion and right now my opinion isnt worth half a canadian cent!

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[Goku]

Hmm, i dont know. I think fucking hell is like a place i heard about off a television interview. Fucking hell is where your penis is covered with open and bleeding sores and you fuck. Fucking is good, open sores bad and painful. Combined..awful. Fucking hell!

I wont be killing myself. I am just a little ..well alot lost right now. Have a good one. When i was contemplating it, life did not look like it could get better. Well i did cut myself...but.......i was really tired! It is no excuse but i wasnt mentally right.


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[Goku]

Of note, I am currently out of school at the moment. I am also in a town with a population of 6000 middle age and older people! There is nothing much here. I am making a good wage a t the moment. WHen i go back to school i will be able to travel a bit after i am done.

I am fine. To me doing somthing for the greater good is important. We are all differnet. Im sorry for not responding in depth to your post but i dont have the time. I need to go to bed right now!

I know one thing about all this. I need to do somthing artistic. That part of me is crying out.... Oh well. I got a few good stories in me.

Have a good one.

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[Quasius]

> Seriously, the god question does eat at me these days.

Keep searching and you will find the answer that you are looking for... because it wants to find you.

> And no offence,
> some of you conservative opinions at times strike me as
> morally wrong! Well, no offence, what a stupid statment eh?
> Ofcourse your going to be offended.

I am not offended; I just disagree. It would be pretty depressing if I was offended by everyone who disagreed with me.

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[Cornellius]

> So, well, this is not Everything. The other factor im not
> willing to talk about..well dont want too. *cough* *cough*
> fucken women!

I'm there... and have been there my whole life. I first viewed it as a problem... but now I don't give a flying fuck... it's not worth the stress as far as I'm concerned. I get some shit from my friends about it (or rather got.. they all understand now) ... some people think I'm gay... but what the fuck ever. If I'm not into sex at this point in my life... then I'm not into it. Ain't nothing wrong with that... no matter how many jocks tell me otherwise

I feel the same as you bud, there's nothing worng with that.

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