SwampGas
01-03-2006, 01:14 AM
2006 new year's resolution: be happy.
Not TO be happy, which implies I'm currently unhappy and want to change...just simply...be happy. No money. No health. No job. No fame. Just be happy. If being happy requires any of those, then I'll end up with them anyway.
2005 was a transition year for me. Purging the bad vibes, coming together, and finding my place in the world. Since I'm back in radio, I'll take that as a sign that I'm supposed to stay there. I love engineering. The pride you get from seeing everything working beautifully to the thrill you get at the moment of catostrophic failure. I'm full time (with benefits, teeheehee) as legally appointed chief operator/operations manager for a station and I'm contracted with another station. I loooooove thinking. I like not knowing the answer and figuring it out. There's a LOT of that.
Family isn't that bad. My grandfather is doing much better as of late so he'll be around for a while. My other set of grandparents got rid of their mooching pain in the ass son (my uncle) so that should serve nothing but good for their health. My sister actually stopped being a druggie, drunk, psycho nut job...she's pretty normal now...I can hold a normal conversation with her and don't mind her being around.
I think 2006 holds stability and roots for me. I'll own 2 houses on Jan 28th (anyone need a place to rent? heh). Since everything else calmed down, it'll let me focus on me rather than the things around me.
I also think 2006 holds spirituality. I've come to terms with the things that bothered me. A side effect is that I've grown loathesome of christians, but as Judaism teaches us, we are still to respect the gentiles. I guess I just finally understand what it means when someone says "trust in Gd." It's not blind faith...as in, believe in this or you'll burn in hell. No, no. It's actually connecting and realizing that He DOES want you to succeed. He DOES want you to be happy. He DOES want to give you that which you ask. It's a matter of being on the same page and understanding His reasoning for your situation and when the appropriate timing is to receive that which you ask. I've received that for which I asked. It took a long time to get the point, but getting to the point was the lesson that I needed to learn prior to getting His gifts.
Will 2006 hold a relationship for me? Perhaps. I'm nearly ready to get into a serious relationship...it's just a matter of waiting until she's ready to get into one. Maybe it's someone I don't know yet. Maybe it is. When the timing is correct, it'll happen faster than I can keep up. Does she need to graduate from college first? Does she need to move to PA first? Does she need to go on the same path I did? The questions aren't for a specific person..but they must be considered when talking about someone I know and even someone I don't know yet.
At the very least, I can finally get a cat since I won't be renting anymore. A stinky little furball might be all the companionship I need right now.
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Not TO be happy, which implies I'm currently unhappy and want to change...just simply...be happy. No money. No health. No job. No fame. Just be happy. If being happy requires any of those, then I'll end up with them anyway.
2005 was a transition year for me. Purging the bad vibes, coming together, and finding my place in the world. Since I'm back in radio, I'll take that as a sign that I'm supposed to stay there. I love engineering. The pride you get from seeing everything working beautifully to the thrill you get at the moment of catostrophic failure. I'm full time (with benefits, teeheehee) as legally appointed chief operator/operations manager for a station and I'm contracted with another station. I loooooove thinking. I like not knowing the answer and figuring it out. There's a LOT of that.
Family isn't that bad. My grandfather is doing much better as of late so he'll be around for a while. My other set of grandparents got rid of their mooching pain in the ass son (my uncle) so that should serve nothing but good for their health. My sister actually stopped being a druggie, drunk, psycho nut job...she's pretty normal now...I can hold a normal conversation with her and don't mind her being around.
I think 2006 holds stability and roots for me. I'll own 2 houses on Jan 28th (anyone need a place to rent? heh). Since everything else calmed down, it'll let me focus on me rather than the things around me.
I also think 2006 holds spirituality. I've come to terms with the things that bothered me. A side effect is that I've grown loathesome of christians, but as Judaism teaches us, we are still to respect the gentiles. I guess I just finally understand what it means when someone says "trust in Gd." It's not blind faith...as in, believe in this or you'll burn in hell. No, no. It's actually connecting and realizing that He DOES want you to succeed. He DOES want you to be happy. He DOES want to give you that which you ask. It's a matter of being on the same page and understanding His reasoning for your situation and when the appropriate timing is to receive that which you ask. I've received that for which I asked. It took a long time to get the point, but getting to the point was the lesson that I needed to learn prior to getting His gifts.
Will 2006 hold a relationship for me? Perhaps. I'm nearly ready to get into a serious relationship...it's just a matter of waiting until she's ready to get into one. Maybe it's someone I don't know yet. Maybe it is. When the timing is correct, it'll happen faster than I can keep up. Does she need to graduate from college first? Does she need to move to PA first? Does she need to go on the same path I did? The questions aren't for a specific person..but they must be considered when talking about someone I know and even someone I don't know yet.
At the very least, I can finally get a cat since I won't be renting anymore. A stinky little furball might be all the companionship I need right now.
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