GeminiMan
04-16-2003, 03:53 AM
My day just sucked for the most part. Went to school, some shit happened, got sick, threw up, went home early, layed around, more shit happened, and then I just got on IRC the rest of the day to get away from my problems and relax a bit (sad truth that I actually need to get online to get away from my problems)...
For some reason, I can't help but thinking recently, would anyone really care if I just dropped off the face of the Earth? Right about now when I'm (once again) running right up to deadlines on huge projects and falling behind on schoolwork (math in particular), sick with a flu bug, taking some sixteen pills every day (finally begin tapering again Friday), etc... it doesn't sound like such a bad idea.
I think about all my friends... and realize that there's maybe two or three I can actually talk to about anything... and yet I almost never talk to them about personal things. Outside Brian & Justin none of my friends even know I have Crohns Disease. It really isn't that big of a deal, but isn't that usually one of those things you'd usually tell your friends to explain why you might be absent from school a lot over a short period of time and unwilling to go and do something during that time?
I often prefer doing things alone... and don't always let other people know what I'm feeling. I wish I had someone to tell, but I feel like I really don't. I don't usually want others to know how I feel. Or at least not at the time. And when I do, I usually just come online and do it... maybe it's just easier to talk to someone about these things when they're so far away, and most of them probably don't give a damn about me anyways. I think I also trust a lot of people online more (whether that's good or not), as many of you are more mature than a lot of my friends, so I view a lot of you as being like really good friends of mine... is that a little out of the ordinary? :P
Well, that's about all I got. Thanks for listening to my rambling. Like I said, I don't talk to people about my feelings much, so it kind of builds up into one big... thing... whether reading it makes any sense or not. :)
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For some reason, I can't help but thinking recently, would anyone really care if I just dropped off the face of the Earth? Right about now when I'm (once again) running right up to deadlines on huge projects and falling behind on schoolwork (math in particular), sick with a flu bug, taking some sixteen pills every day (finally begin tapering again Friday), etc... it doesn't sound like such a bad idea.
I think about all my friends... and realize that there's maybe two or three I can actually talk to about anything... and yet I almost never talk to them about personal things. Outside Brian & Justin none of my friends even know I have Crohns Disease. It really isn't that big of a deal, but isn't that usually one of those things you'd usually tell your friends to explain why you might be absent from school a lot over a short period of time and unwilling to go and do something during that time?
I often prefer doing things alone... and don't always let other people know what I'm feeling. I wish I had someone to tell, but I feel like I really don't. I don't usually want others to know how I feel. Or at least not at the time. And when I do, I usually just come online and do it... maybe it's just easier to talk to someone about these things when they're so far away, and most of them probably don't give a damn about me anyways. I think I also trust a lot of people online more (whether that's good or not), as many of you are more mature than a lot of my friends, so I view a lot of you as being like really good friends of mine... is that a little out of the ordinary? :P
Well, that's about all I got. Thanks for listening to my rambling. Like I said, I don't talk to people about my feelings much, so it kind of builds up into one big... thing... whether reading it makes any sense or not. :)
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