it's over

[SwampGas]

i called her last night...wanted to talk. first thing she said was "well, i got a tattoo so we can't be together anymore".

even before we were going out, i specifically said i HATE tattoos, piercings, etc...i absolutely HATE them...a HUGE turnoff.

so i played it cool. told her to come over anyway in the morning.

i packed up all her stuff...pictures, little things...brought her in, gave her the stuff, and she left. didn't talk at all.

she calls me a few mins later wanting to know why i was doing this...if i was being serious...

she said REALLY nasty things to me last week..i mean REALLY bad. i was SO angry.

so anyway, i said "yes...100% serious". so she started crying and said "you don't love me..you never loved me".

ok..let's see...for the last year and a half, she's been doing stuff i absolutely hate and think is disgusting:

drink
smoke
piercings
tattoos
"having fun" = hanging out in a large group of people in an empty parking lot and running from the police

since day 1 i said if she ever did that stuff, i'd leave her. i did. and now i can never be with her again, since she has a permanent tattoo.

i'm so hurt...i think i need to just disappear for a while...everything is getting to me now. of course, we all know i can't have a vacation.

you'll never understand this situation unless you've lived it. loving someone as much as i did, wanting to marry them, spend the rest of your life with them...then they treat you like shit, do horrible things, badmouth you, do things just to piss you off and hurt you....i can honestly say it's like losing a part of you. a part that's lasted for 2 years. a part that was the most beautiful woman in the entire world.

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[Fla Flash]

I'm sorry to hear that Swampy. I did the same thing twenty five years ago. I never stopped thinking about her, but I'd have been miserable eternally if I hadn't done it. Hang in there.

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[SwampGas]

> I'm sorry to hear that Swampy. I did the same thing twenty
> five years ago. I never stopped thinking about her, but I'd
> have been miserable eternally if I hadn't done it. Hang in
> there.

i'm single for the first time in 2 years.

no hugs
no kisses
no support
no friendship
no sex
no nothing

just me.

if i knew this would happen, i would never have met her. not worth the pain and hurt.

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[Fla Flash]

I'm kind of with you there. My current is 28. I'm 47. Her dad is only 4 years older than me. I know she's eventually going to buckle under to his pressure. (That's freakin' stupid). But I went fifteen years without any kind of full time or even part time relationship. The only thing it did was make me depend on myself (which was ok) and made me bitter. I don't know what to tell you, except to avoid being bitter. It'll poison you. And those around you. If it seems like it sucks as bad as it's going to, then it's bound to get better. Believe me.

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[icenine0]

...a bit psyko O_o, and a major drain on your emotions. So, it might suck now, but like the other guy said, no more fights...

> i called her last night...wanted to talk. first thing she
> said was "well, i got a tattoo so we can't be together
> anymore".
>
> even before we were going out, i specifically said i HATE
> tattoos, piercings, etc...i absolutely HATE them...a HUGE
> turnoff.
>
> so i played it cool. told her to come over anyway in the
> morning.
>
> i packed up all her stuff...pictures, little
> things...brought her in, gave her the stuff, and she left.
> didn't talk at all.
>
> she calls me a few mins later wanting to know why i was
> doing this...if i was being serious...
>
> she said REALLY nasty things to me last week..i mean REALLY
> bad. i was SO angry.
>
> so anyway, i said "yes...100% serious". so she started
> crying and said "you don't love me..you never loved me".
>
> ok..let's see...for the last year and a half, she's been
> doing stuff i absolutely hate and think is disgusting:
>
> drink
> smoke
> piercings
> tattoos
> "having fun" = hanging out in a large group of people in an
> empty parking lot and running from the police
>
> since day 1 i said if she ever did that stuff, i'd leave
> her. i did. and now i can never be with her again, since
> she has a permanent tattoo.
>
> i'm so hurt...i think i need to just disappear for a
> while...everything is getting to me now. of course, we all
> know i can't have a vacation.
>
> you'll never understand this situation unless you've lived
> it. loving someone as much as i did, wanting to marry them,
> spend the rest of your life with them...then they treat you
> like shit, do horrible things, badmouth you, do things just
> to piss you off and hurt you....i can honestly say it's like
> losing a part of you. a part that's lasted for 2 years. a
> part that was the most beautiful woman in the entire world.
>


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[Isildur]

> i can honestly say it's like
> losing a part of you. a part that's lasted for 2 years. a
> part that was the most beautiful woman in the entire world.
>

Amputation is excrutiating, but it's better than letting the bad limb poison you.

It sounds like she wasn't really thinking about your feelings- she was more concerned with testing how much bs you were willing to put up with from her. Seeing you put up with it probably helped her keep up her self-image by letting her think "if he's willing to put up with this, I must be beautiful/intelligent/charming/etc. There are a lot of people like that, who measure their self-worth by how much the abuse people close to them are willing to put up with. Sooner or later people like that end up pushing others too far.

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[shawn]

> i called her last night...wanted to talk. first thing she
> said was "well, i got a tattoo so we can't be together
> anymore".
>
> even before we were going out, i specifically said i HATE
> tattoos, piercings, etc...i absolutely HATE them...a HUGE
> turnoff.
>
> so i played it cool. told her to come over anyway in the
> morning.
>
> i packed up all her stuff...pictures, little
> things...brought her in, gave her the stuff, and she left.
> didn't talk at all.
>
> she calls me a few mins later wanting to know why i was
> doing this...if i was being serious...
>
> she said REALLY nasty things to me last week..i mean REALLY
> bad. i was SO angry.
>
> so anyway, i said "yes...100% serious". so she started
> crying and said "you don't love me..you never loved me".
>
> ok..let's see...for the last year and a half, she's been
> doing stuff i absolutely hate and think is disgusting:
>
> drink
> smoke
> piercings
> tattoos
> "having fun" = hanging out in a large group of people in an
> empty parking lot and running from the police
>
> since day 1 i said if she ever did that stuff, i'd leave
> her. i did. and now i can never be with her again, since
> she has a permanent tattoo.
>
> i'm so hurt...i think i need to just disappear for a
> while...everything is getting to me now. of course, we all
> know i can't have a vacation.
>
> you'll never understand this situation unless you've lived
> it. loving someone as much as i did, wanting to marry them,
> spend the rest of your life with them...then they treat you
> like shit, do horrible things, badmouth you, do things just
> to piss you off and hurt you....i can honestly say it's like
> losing a part of you. a part that's lasted for 2 years. a
> part that was the most beautiful woman in the entire world.
>

I know you said that she was a beautiful girl, but from what you have written above she seems quite immature compared to you. :)

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[shawn]

> > I know you said that she was a beautiful girl, but from
> what
> > you have written above she seems quite immature compared
> to
> > you. :)
> >
>
> I just wanna know if she puts out. ;)
>
>
> *ok I'm gonna stop now. this is all a joke, but i'm getting
> ridiculous*
>

I'ld say it's time to stop, that's definitely crossing the line. :)

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[Kabucho]

dude, I ended up faling in love with my friends ex gf and she ended up fucking me over twice. it really fucking sucks, but anyways, atleast you told her how you felt and didn't chicken out lol. everything will be ok sooner or later Swampy. just take it one day at a time feller.

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[SwampGas]

> dude, I ended up faling in love with my friends ex gf and
> she ended up fucking me over twice. it really fucking sucks,
> but anyways, atleast you told her how you felt and didn't
> chicken out lol. everything will be ok sooner or later
> Swampy. just take it one day at a time feller.
>


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