Kuikorosu
04-13-2003, 02:07 AM
I saw "Anger Management" today, and I think it struck a little too close to home. I figure that I have the implosive type, and I know that I'm fucked if I can't do anything about it. The sad thing is that I've got way too much on the line to do anything. If I were to explode on someone, I would have one of several things happen.
- I would lose my job
- I would be kicked out of the house
- I would be kicked out of college
- I'd get the shit beaten out of me
- I'd go to jail.
I'm caught between a rock and a hard place. If any of these things happen, I'd be pretty much fucked for the rest of my life. Without a house, I'd be living on the streets. (I have no friends) Without a job, I'd be unable to pay tuition. Without college, I'd get kicked out of my house, and so on. The last two things are self explanitory bad.
It gives me headaches, and it makes me constantly irate and angry. Those who know me on IRC and even on a certain other board know that I'm prone to lashing out at people at times. My basic plan is to see how things pan out and hope it's all for the best. I hope it is.
Sometimes I wonder ... I'd say a lot of things, but someone might take it as being suicidal or homicidal. And you know what? It's those people who make me afraid to express my anger. I don't know what to do anymore.
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- I would lose my job
- I would be kicked out of the house
- I would be kicked out of college
- I'd get the shit beaten out of me
- I'd go to jail.
I'm caught between a rock and a hard place. If any of these things happen, I'd be pretty much fucked for the rest of my life. Without a house, I'd be living on the streets. (I have no friends) Without a job, I'd be unable to pay tuition. Without college, I'd get kicked out of my house, and so on. The last two things are self explanitory bad.
It gives me headaches, and it makes me constantly irate and angry. Those who know me on IRC and even on a certain other board know that I'm prone to lashing out at people at times. My basic plan is to see how things pan out and hope it's all for the best. I hope it is.
Sometimes I wonder ... I'd say a lot of things, but someone might take it as being suicidal or homicidal. And you know what? It's those people who make me afraid to express my anger. I don't know what to do anymore.
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