lord_steak
03-12-2003, 09:01 PM
Remember me talking about that gal? Something...<font size=5>NOT GOOD</font> happened before we came back into each other's lives.
My best friend and I have been best friends for a decade now. That means since I was 11-years old. Some time therein, we had sworn to not do ANYTHING at all with one of the other's ex-'s. I have had oodles of oppurtunities over the years, particularly last fall, and held true to my word.
The gal I spoke of informed me today that they had sex about a month ago, and that they thought it'd be best to keep in under wraps. Additionally, he had kissed her a number of times before then.
I have never been that furious in my life. No yelling, no screaming, no hitting, no carrying on. Silent, shaking, and all began to get a red-ish tint. She was crying. She also told me that guy up in Maine had proposed to her (either over the phone or over IM), and that she said yes. She was clinging to me, crying, and apologizing profusely. She said she loved us both. She also said that if I popped the question first, she'd probably have said yes to me.
I pleaded God to help me keep the rage under control. I know that is the ONLY reason I was able to. Eventually, the first wave of anger passed. I forgave her, and she seems to be willing to grant me herself for the next week & a half, when finals week ends (after which, I might never see her again).
Fury. Almost never enters my system, but when it does....
What I'm worried about right now is that the second wave hasn't come yet, in five hours. That's bad. There's only been a few times I've been raging, and it comes in an initial wave, then one that's much more severe later. I get the feeling that wave will be triggered by my seeing him again. She said she's gonna tell him tomorrow, and she demands to be there when I get to have my little chat with the snot. Here's how things look if my anger starts mounting:
I outweigh him by 70-75 pounds.
I stand a few inches taller than him.
I've hit the weights much more than he has.
I've had training in various martial arts (not much, but enough to combine); he has none.
I have all the hate and rage built up over a 8-year span of a physically abusive older brother that I couldn't stop, paired with this; he's never seen me truly pissed, let alone raging.
I have more experience in scraps than he does.
I've drank a hell of a lot more milk than he has.
He's got a thin build.
Not looking good for him, I know.
She said she was gonna have to call that guy up in Maine. She said he's gonna be livid when she tells him about that encounter with m' best friend, and again about what she & I did last Saturday.
If he says she's gone, <u>SHE'S MINE FOR KEEPS!!!</u>
<P ID="signature">--
Bravely bold Sir Robin, rode forth from Camelot....
<center><image src="http://www.lancs.ac.uk/ug/tullett/robin3he.jpg"></center>
...brave Sir Robin ran away....</P>
My best friend and I have been best friends for a decade now. That means since I was 11-years old. Some time therein, we had sworn to not do ANYTHING at all with one of the other's ex-'s. I have had oodles of oppurtunities over the years, particularly last fall, and held true to my word.
The gal I spoke of informed me today that they had sex about a month ago, and that they thought it'd be best to keep in under wraps. Additionally, he had kissed her a number of times before then.
I have never been that furious in my life. No yelling, no screaming, no hitting, no carrying on. Silent, shaking, and all began to get a red-ish tint. She was crying. She also told me that guy up in Maine had proposed to her (either over the phone or over IM), and that she said yes. She was clinging to me, crying, and apologizing profusely. She said she loved us both. She also said that if I popped the question first, she'd probably have said yes to me.
I pleaded God to help me keep the rage under control. I know that is the ONLY reason I was able to. Eventually, the first wave of anger passed. I forgave her, and she seems to be willing to grant me herself for the next week & a half, when finals week ends (after which, I might never see her again).
Fury. Almost never enters my system, but when it does....
What I'm worried about right now is that the second wave hasn't come yet, in five hours. That's bad. There's only been a few times I've been raging, and it comes in an initial wave, then one that's much more severe later. I get the feeling that wave will be triggered by my seeing him again. She said she's gonna tell him tomorrow, and she demands to be there when I get to have my little chat with the snot. Here's how things look if my anger starts mounting:
I outweigh him by 70-75 pounds.
I stand a few inches taller than him.
I've hit the weights much more than he has.
I've had training in various martial arts (not much, but enough to combine); he has none.
I have all the hate and rage built up over a 8-year span of a physically abusive older brother that I couldn't stop, paired with this; he's never seen me truly pissed, let alone raging.
I have more experience in scraps than he does.
I've drank a hell of a lot more milk than he has.
He's got a thin build.
Not looking good for him, I know.
She said she was gonna have to call that guy up in Maine. She said he's gonna be livid when she tells him about that encounter with m' best friend, and again about what she & I did last Saturday.
If he says she's gone, <u>SHE'S MINE FOR KEEPS!!!</u>
<P ID="signature">--
Bravely bold Sir Robin, rode forth from Camelot....
<center><image src="http://www.lancs.ac.uk/ug/tullett/robin3he.jpg"></center>
...brave Sir Robin ran away....</P>