lord_steak
03-06-2003, 08:48 PM
This is odd.
A couple of weeks ago, I got an E-Mail from a particular ex- of mine. She & I hadn't talked in two years, since things had gone explosive in the worst possible way at the end. I got the E-Mail on a Tuesday, my favourite day of the week (most of the nasty shit in my life happens on Tuesday). She said she wanted to talk. Well, the next week, on Wednesday, we did. For nearly three hours. Most of that time, we were catching up. We exchanged E-Mails again later, and the next week, we got lunch. We seemed to be beating on some kind of barrier or something. Later, my best friend asked me if she & I were gonna get back together. I was adamantly opposed to that.
Last night, we were on AIM. We chatted about various whatnot, and seemed to hit that barrier again. After a bit, I told her that we were hitting a barrier. She agreed, and we quickly figured out that meeting up brought old feelings back to the surface. I knew she didn't just want a hug when we departed the last two times. She didn't deny that. We decided to meet up again today.
Today, was...strange. We met up after my 19<sup><u></u></sup> Cen. Brit. Lit. class. We hit Wendy's (not literally, but it is a tempting thought <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>), and drove to another part of town to eat. We talked. She was driving the old minivan, what she drove when we had been dating. Memories flooded me. After eating, we began talking again. I remembered tickling her knees a number of times while she was driving. Gave it a shot, she defended herself (something she had much more difficulty with while driving <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>). We continued talking. Cycle repeats, and we found ourselves holding hands again. And, we wound up kissing again, after which we held eachother tight, just sitting there, in a minivan, in a movie store parking lot. I felt like I had finally made it home. We spent the rest of the afternoon together, before she had to go to class and take a test at 4. We're going to see Gods & Generals Saturday night.
I'm so confused. I spent two years in silent, bitter anger toward her, only to find that those feelings I had for her never left. And what's most strange to me is how we fell right back into our old habits, without a miss. Shortly before I walked her to class, I asked what we are now. She said she doesn't know (inconvient, I was asking 'cuz I don't know either). I'm not sure what to make of this.
<P ID="signature">--
Bravely bold Sir Robin, rode forth from Camelot....
<center><image src="http://www.lancs.ac.uk/ug/tullett/robin3he.jpg"></center>
...brave Sir Robin ran away....</P>
A couple of weeks ago, I got an E-Mail from a particular ex- of mine. She & I hadn't talked in two years, since things had gone explosive in the worst possible way at the end. I got the E-Mail on a Tuesday, my favourite day of the week (most of the nasty shit in my life happens on Tuesday). She said she wanted to talk. Well, the next week, on Wednesday, we did. For nearly three hours. Most of that time, we were catching up. We exchanged E-Mails again later, and the next week, we got lunch. We seemed to be beating on some kind of barrier or something. Later, my best friend asked me if she & I were gonna get back together. I was adamantly opposed to that.
Last night, we were on AIM. We chatted about various whatnot, and seemed to hit that barrier again. After a bit, I told her that we were hitting a barrier. She agreed, and we quickly figured out that meeting up brought old feelings back to the surface. I knew she didn't just want a hug when we departed the last two times. She didn't deny that. We decided to meet up again today.
Today, was...strange. We met up after my 19<sup><u></u></sup> Cen. Brit. Lit. class. We hit Wendy's (not literally, but it is a tempting thought <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>), and drove to another part of town to eat. We talked. She was driving the old minivan, what she drove when we had been dating. Memories flooded me. After eating, we began talking again. I remembered tickling her knees a number of times while she was driving. Gave it a shot, she defended herself (something she had much more difficulty with while driving <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>). We continued talking. Cycle repeats, and we found ourselves holding hands again. And, we wound up kissing again, after which we held eachother tight, just sitting there, in a minivan, in a movie store parking lot. I felt like I had finally made it home. We spent the rest of the afternoon together, before she had to go to class and take a test at 4. We're going to see Gods & Generals Saturday night.
I'm so confused. I spent two years in silent, bitter anger toward her, only to find that those feelings I had for her never left. And what's most strange to me is how we fell right back into our old habits, without a miss. Shortly before I walked her to class, I asked what we are now. She said she doesn't know (inconvient, I was asking 'cuz I don't know either). I'm not sure what to make of this.
<P ID="signature">--
Bravely bold Sir Robin, rode forth from Camelot....
<center><image src="http://www.lancs.ac.uk/ug/tullett/robin3he.jpg"></center>
...brave Sir Robin ran away....</P>