I don't want to sleep

[Disch]

My sister is getting married Saturday. I should be happy for her. I really like the guy she's marrying. But for some reason, I'm dreading the whole thing.

Maybe it's because it's change. I always seem to dread anything eventful (as strange as that seems), but I especially dread things that will change my situation.

Right now, me and my sis (of 4 kids) are the only ones that still live at home. After she moves out... I'm the only one left. The pressure to move out is building up, but I'm in no better position to move out now than I was 4 years ago. I still have the same job, no savings at all, no plans, no education, no nothing.

Too much is changing. I'm getting too old. I'm getting too tired. I don't know what I'm going to do.

I don't want to go to sleep because that will put me 1 day closer to change. But I don't want to stay up because I'm really tired. Maybe I'll just watch some TV or something.. I dunno /wwwthreads/images/icons/frown.gif.

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[JCE3000GT]

> Too much is changing. I'm getting too old. I'm getting too
> tired. I don't know what I'm going to do.

Welcome to my world Disch. Apply for a grant from the Goverment to goto school...when it's over you'll get much better jobs.

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[JCE3000GT]

> he hates school.

If you don't have a degree in this shitty country you can't get a good job.

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[Isildur]

> My sister is getting married Saturday. I should be happy
> for her. I really like the guy she's marrying. But for
> some reason, I'm dreading the whole thing.
>
> Maybe it's because it's change. I always seem to dread
> anything eventful (as strange as that seems), but I
> especially dread things that will change my situation.
>

I know what you mean... change often bothers me too. Sometimes it feels like whenever you finally understand and now how to deal with your situation, the situation changes.

I know that good things come from change too, but it still pains me sometimes to think of times I can never return to. I'm very sentimental and nostalgia-prone, for better and for worse.

> Right now, me and my sis (of 4 kids) are the only ones that
> still live at home. After she moves out... I'm the only one
> left.

That was my situation too, when the younger of my two sisters got married, except I was a sophomore in High school at the time. It felt really weird for a while, being alone in the apartment except for my parents. Actually it was weird every time a sibling left; the place felt emptier each time. I still see my siblings though, especially the sister I mentioned, because she lives within walking distance now. (I need to take the subway when I visit my brother and my oldest sister.)

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[Slein]

The only thing constant is change. Accept the fact and move on. :)

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[blackize]

I know what you're going through, sort of. My mom ran off and bought a house in PA with her boyfriend. It sucks because she wants to move right after I graduate this June, but I don't know what my plans are for the future and shit. And she didn't even tell my dad. So I'm faced with finding out my plans for the future, telling my dad and when the day comes, leaving everything I've ever known behind and going up to a real shit hole in PA.

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