It never stops....

[Disch]

I took a mental beating this month. Nothing specific... just everything seemed to be hard for me to handle. I just think that my axiety is getting worse.


It boiled over earlier today... 3 hours before my scheduled work shift, and I totally freak out. I go downstairs to throw my uniform in the wash, but before I get to the laundry room, I just start dreading work. The word "dread" doesn't really describe it too well. It's like my mind went completely blank except for one thought: "I don't want to go to work"... then my stomache caves in. I scramble to the nearby couch and pull a blanket over my head and just start crying. I don't know why it happened... I didn't know how to stop.

My mom (who was in the next room) is like totally panicing. She comes up and tries to comfort me, but her presence just makes me feel worse. If I could've ran up to my room I would have... but I was trapped.


So, ..... not only did I not go to work today... but I quit my job altogether. I couldn't bring myself to go back there. The sad thing is that job wasn't bad. It was actually a decent job that I didn't mind. I don't know why... but I just couldn't do it anymore.

So here I am... 19... living with my parents... no job... and a high-school education. Any job I could think of trying to get either completely disgusts me, or frightens me half to death. School frightens me even more.... there's no way I could ever go back.

I don't know what to do. I'm totally lost. I'm stressed, I'm tired, I'm scared, and I'm clueless. Thank god my parents are sympathetic. If they weren't I'd be in complete shitsville right now.

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[holyhandwrit]

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Hope you get better though, friend.

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[icenine0]

That sounds an awful lot like a panic attack to me, paco. My buddy used to have em' too... The only advice I can give you, and I know this sux0rs, is to get counseling. It might just be a little pill that you need to get back on track and be the best you can be. <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>



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[ricardobaltazar]

> It boiled over earlier today... 3 hours before my scheduled
> work shift, and I totally freak out. I go downstairs to
> throw my uniform in the wash, but before I get to the
> laundry room, I just start dreading work. The word "dread"

> doesn't really describe it too well. It's like my mind went
> completely blank except for one thought: "I don't want to
> go to work"... then my stomache caves in. I scramble to the
> nearby couch and pull a blanket over my head and just start
> crying. I don't know why it happened... I didn't know how
> to stop.

I can completely relate. I have panic attacks as well and I dread work. My advice is to get exercise. It works for me. Helps you release that extra tension.


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[Fla Flash]

Oh man. I'm lucky. Never had a panic attack. I sympathize with you, bud. It seems like these things only happen to good people.

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[shawn]

That happens to me ALLLLL the time, just figure you must do what you must and go to work, just do it as the saying goes, but if your covered on some insurance then go see a doctor about this and don't worry because it's thier job to deal with stuff like this and you are far from the first person to come to them with this problem. <img src=smilies/cwm11.gif>

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