i fucked it up

[puduhead]

Yah well that's how it goes. Got the long distance woman I haven't met yet (supposed to be june 27th). But I was at the club on my bday with a couple hotties I know. We all got drunk and I got freaky with one of em. No sex or anything. Just making out. and i decided to tell my girl - why? cuz I'm an honest asshole, soon to be single honest asshole.

Now i dunno what the fuck to do. She's obviously upset. and I have said all i can and tried to portray the entire circumstances we are in in the most acceptable light. But I get the pushed off feeling. And that just makes me feel like - fuck it! I'm not demanding for anyone to be with me and I don't need excuses for my fuck-ups even when they aren't that bad. i take responsibility at whatever the cost.

I was drunk on my bday but tonight, that drunkness shall be magnified exceedingly by my calling as the worlds most apathetic asshole.

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[SwampGas]

> got drunk and I got freaky with one of em. No sex or
> anything. Just making out. and i decided to tell my girl -
> why? cuz I'm an honest asshole, soon to be single honest
> asshole.

long distance relationships don't work out. don't bother taking it to the next level unless you're face to face and not going anywhere.

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[puduhead]

> long distance relationships don't work out. don't bother
> taking it to the next level unless you're face to face and
> not going anywhere.
>

You are totally right. But the plan was for her to visit for a month and then based on that experience. Move in with me a couple months later. We are pretty crazy about each other. but now I may have fucked it up b4 it all even started.

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[puduhead]

> All I can say is if you want it to work out with that girl
> still, try. Nothing would be gained from you suddenly
> becoming apathetic to everything.
>

Yah, I mean. I'm not all giving up. But we both feel like shit and the ball is in her court. I'm not about to say - "stop being a baby and just get with me." I know I hurt her.

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[shawn]

Silence on certain things is highly underated, never tell a woman something that'll get you in hot water like that, your just asking for trouble, just swallow the guilt and go on. :)

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[puduhead]

> Yeah, you most likely did. I'm just saying that you
> shouldn't quit out right like it sounded to me you were
> saying you were going to.

Yah, well my heart feels like quitting. I don't like hanging around a guilty situation. But we'll see. a couple of my friends think it is all gonna blow over. But since I am the "offender" in the situation, I'm not taking such a positive response.


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[Dark Macc]

> long distance relationships don't work out. don't bother
> taking it to the next level unless you're face to face and
> not going anywhere.


I wouldn't say that. I'm in a long distance relationship and we're engaged to be wed. And, to make matters even more interesting, we met over the net. So, not all cases work out - a lot of them don't - but not all of them are failures, either.


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[Kijutsu]

You also have to factor in that you did meet in person. . .

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[Isildur]

> Yah, well my heart feels like quitting. I don't like
> hanging around a guilty situation. But we'll see. a couple
> of my friends think it is all gonna blow over. But since I
> am the "offender" in the situation, I'm not taking such a
> positive response.
>

Since you're the offender, you've got to ask yourself how much the relationship means to you, and make as many apologies as are reasonable to preserve a relationship of that worth. So it all depends on how you feel.


Of course my brain is sort of fried right now from writing 700 lines of intricate code in two days (Why? Because I'm a procrastinating moron! [sad]) So I'm not sure if I'm making much sence right now. Here's a neat idea: grayscale Skittles. I thought of it first so no stealing.

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[Dark Macc]

> You also have to factor in that you did meet in person. . .
>

Yeah, a year after we were dating

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[Octocrook]

> > You also have to factor in that you did meet in person. .
> .
> >
>
> Yeah, a year after we were dating
>

You were dating before you met in person? Are there places to date online or something? J/k...just bustin yer balls :P

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[puduhead]

> Since you're the offender, you've got to ask yourself how
> much the relationship means to you, and make as many
> apologies as are reasonable to preserve a relationship of
> that worth. So it all depends on how you feel.

yah yer right. And I spent the whole day apologizing but i don't feel like she's buying it. she says she is but she's not acting that way. And I can't keep doing that over and over - it gets me depressed.

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[Kijutsu]

my my my, are we violent ? :D

Dude. . Darkmacc, I feel for you . .that hurts. :D

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[puduhead]

Yah, it sucked. god it sucked. well, we are back on track. so it's good.

bye bye


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