SwampGas
05-09-2002, 12:49 AM
ok..so..life has totally sucked recently. everyone knows that.
however, last night was the first time i smiled without there being comedy...as in, i was actually happy. like a real smile. it almost hurt to crack a smile.
see, i met this chick through a friend...and i was being my normal ass-self...gave her my list of 50 questions regarding her life, her sex life, everything...she actually answered them.
then i saw her...holy balls. mmmm....easy 10/10 on the uNFability scale.
but then...i actually got to know her and give a damn about her. so i went back to keep chatting with her for more than just looks.
anyway, i'm like totally being weird about this...i'm nervous to talk to her sometimes, i'm being nice to other people now, she's totally awesome.
so anyway, she had to go to the hospital the other day..and i was thinking about calling her to see what was up with the visit, but i didn't because i didn't want to bug her. you know, big important doctor visit and shit....i figured i'd just be a pain in the ass.
turns out she WANTED me to call her...IUBEGUB$@R*(H$*B damnit. totally missed that opportunity for brownie points.
but anyhoo, we chatted for 4 hours on the phone last night. it was excellent. we talked about absolutely nothing...it was like 4 hours of seinfeld...yet it was enjoyable and informative. she has the freaking cutest and sexiest little giggle...oh my god. i'm such a wuss, too. she was dropping hints for me to call her for like half an hour and i was too much of a poose to do it. so i dialed her number on my phone...and just sat there staring at it. then something came over me...like something told me "hey dumbass...CALL HER". so i said "fuck it" and hit the send button. best decision i've made in a long time.
she even likes cats too..and i'm a big cat person.
god this is SO high school...i'm all giddy and rambling on about her. my friends are about sick of hearing about her now...but oh my god...she's so excellent. i SO want to get the hookup with her.
had a dream about her the other day too. all i remember is that she was laying down...like not sleeping...more of a tv watching position....and i kissed her...then i woke up. but it didn't make sense. how would i know what it's like to do that, considering i've never done that with her? it was almost too vivid and too many details were there...stuff i shouldn't know about and stuff i wasn't actually told. maybe a glimpse of the future..maybe a sign to say "hey jackass...get off your duff and go after her"...i dunno.
it's just weird...i've never really gotten this bent out of shape over a possible significant other before, especially given the circumstances. i've always been really passive and "yeah ok cool" about it...never this agressive.
oh, and btw, she has ties to people around here...so if you know who i'm talking about, bite your tongue. we needn't use names.
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however, last night was the first time i smiled without there being comedy...as in, i was actually happy. like a real smile. it almost hurt to crack a smile.
see, i met this chick through a friend...and i was being my normal ass-self...gave her my list of 50 questions regarding her life, her sex life, everything...she actually answered them.
then i saw her...holy balls. mmmm....easy 10/10 on the uNFability scale.
but then...i actually got to know her and give a damn about her. so i went back to keep chatting with her for more than just looks.
anyway, i'm like totally being weird about this...i'm nervous to talk to her sometimes, i'm being nice to other people now, she's totally awesome.
so anyway, she had to go to the hospital the other day..and i was thinking about calling her to see what was up with the visit, but i didn't because i didn't want to bug her. you know, big important doctor visit and shit....i figured i'd just be a pain in the ass.
turns out she WANTED me to call her...IUBEGUB$@R*(H$*B damnit. totally missed that opportunity for brownie points.
but anyhoo, we chatted for 4 hours on the phone last night. it was excellent. we talked about absolutely nothing...it was like 4 hours of seinfeld...yet it was enjoyable and informative. she has the freaking cutest and sexiest little giggle...oh my god. i'm such a wuss, too. she was dropping hints for me to call her for like half an hour and i was too much of a poose to do it. so i dialed her number on my phone...and just sat there staring at it. then something came over me...like something told me "hey dumbass...CALL HER". so i said "fuck it" and hit the send button. best decision i've made in a long time.
she even likes cats too..and i'm a big cat person.
god this is SO high school...i'm all giddy and rambling on about her. my friends are about sick of hearing about her now...but oh my god...she's so excellent. i SO want to get the hookup with her.
had a dream about her the other day too. all i remember is that she was laying down...like not sleeping...more of a tv watching position....and i kissed her...then i woke up. but it didn't make sense. how would i know what it's like to do that, considering i've never done that with her? it was almost too vivid and too many details were there...stuff i shouldn't know about and stuff i wasn't actually told. maybe a glimpse of the future..maybe a sign to say "hey jackass...get off your duff and go after her"...i dunno.
it's just weird...i've never really gotten this bent out of shape over a possible significant other before, especially given the circumstances. i've always been really passive and "yeah ok cool" about it...never this agressive.
oh, and btw, she has ties to people around here...so if you know who i'm talking about, bite your tongue. we needn't use names.
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