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Kijutsu
04-30-2002, 02:21 AM
. . it is as I expected. She has been avoiding me. It seems that she has found out that she only wants to be friends. I respect that. Ironic thing is, I feel the same way, but I don't. I know she wasn't playing with my heart, and I know I wasn't playing with hers. . so there are no hard feeling, but there are on my end. .. I asked my best friend if she has been avoiding me. He couldn't tell me straight out. I had to force him to. But it is true. For some reason, it hurts. . bad. But I kinda feel the same way. I feel for her, I really do.

It's weird. . and it happened over the last week or so. I haven't been able to get a hold of her the last week and a half. I figured she was at work or at school.. She was. . avoiding me. . now i have this huge chunk of my heart missing. I opened up to her, unlike to anyone else, and now this. I. . .yeah. . I dunno what the hell to think now. I'm gonna miss her . . god knows I am.. but she's only 15 minutes away, and I'll be able to see her any day . . . it's just missing that feeling of being able to hold onto someone you love dearly. . . to talk to quietly. . . and not have to worry about that person blabbing to everyone in the whole entire fucking world. I feel like there's a big huge ass hole in my chest now. it hurts. . bad. Jesus I didn't think it would hurt like this. My friend told me she's been avoiding me tonight at aroud 8. . nnow. . sititng here 2 hours later. . I can barely type this.. i didn't think it would hurt like this at 8. . .damn. .

I knew if I opened up to someone like this, that something wrong was going to happen. fuck man. . . . . . .
*trails off*


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Kijutsu
04-30-2002, 02:34 AM
That's the thing. .I did talk to one of her friends. She. . .is stubborn. . and. . . yeah .. it's done for.

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puduhead
04-30-2002, 05:00 AM
Yah. One thing that hurts is not having that straight up conversation. If someone is avoiding you, it's understandably gonna make you feel bad. As if there is something wrong with you.

That sucks dude. Sorry.


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Isildur
04-30-2002, 07:04 AM
> . . it is as I expected. She has been avoiding me. It seems
> that she has found out that she only wants to be friends. I
> respect that. Ironic thing is, I feel the same way, but I
> don't. I know she wasn't playing with my heart, and I know
> I wasn't playing with hers. . so there are no hard feeling,
> but there are on my end. .. I asked my best friend if she
> has been avoiding me. He couldn't tell me straight out. I
> had to force him to. But it is true. For some reason, it
> hurts. . bad. But I kinda feel the same way. I feel for
> her, I really do.
>
> It's weird. . and it happened over the last week or so. I
> haven't been able to get a hold of her the last week and a
> half. I figured she was at work or at school.. She was. .
> avoiding me. . now i have this huge chunk of my heart
> missing. I opened up to her, unlike to anyone else, and now
> this. I. . .yeah. . I dunno what the hell to think now.
> I'm gonna miss her . . god knows I am.. but she's only 15
> minutes away, and I'll be able to see her any day . . .
> it's just missing that feeling of being able to hold onto
> someone you love dearly. . . to talk to quietly. . . and
> not have to worry about that person blabbing to everyone in
> the whole entire fucking world. I feel like there's a big
> huge ass hole in my chest now. it hurts. . bad. Jesus I
> didn't think it would hurt like this. My friend told me
> she's been avoiding me tonight at aroud 8. . nnow. . sititng
> here 2 hours later. . I can barely type this.. i didn't
> think it would hurt like this at 8. . .damn. .
>
> I knew if I opened up to someone like this, that something
> wrong was going to happen. fuck man. . . . . . .
> *trails off*
>

Man... Sorry.

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Fla Flash
04-30-2002, 11:46 AM
That sucks. I'm sorry, man. I know how you feel.

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puduhead
04-30-2002, 04:53 PM
> everyone else is being sympathetic, so i'm going to go the
> Captain Obvious route here:
>
> move on, man...make new memories, make new friends. if she
> deosn't want to spend time with you, well, that's her loss.
> if she wants to be a stubborn fool, let her do it alone.
> who needs a so-called friend that doesn't even have the
> decency to face you?
>
> control YOUR life. press on. the sooner the better.
>
> is this easier said than done? yes. try anyway. the past
> is gone...GIVE IT UP...you can't change it or her. you can
> only control now. do the best you can.
>
> i know this seems overly harsh, but i used to be the type of
> person that just couldn't let go. i used to let the memory
> of old girlfriends torture me endlessly. "what went wrong?"
> "why did she do this?" "what could i have done to make
> things better?"
>
> these questions aren't worth wasting your time to answer.
> hang out with some different people, see the world. write a
> piece of music, code a program, paint a picture, sign up for
> community theater. do anything but torture yourself over
> this.
>

Yah, that's true, ultimately. But this just happened to him. It's important that he deal with his emotions for a little while. And in the end, I agree with you, he should move on.


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Fla Flash
04-30-2002, 08:57 PM
That's part of the learning process. He's in pain now, but he'll eventually pull up and move on. That's what we do.

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Kijutsu
04-30-2002, 10:54 PM
You all are right. . screw it. What the hell am I gonna dwell on it for. . Fuck it all. . there's other fish in the sea dammit! :D

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