I hate love.

[JCE3000GT]

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First of all let me ask why is it almost always the case that I fall in love with someone I cannot have? I've been very good friends with this girl for about 5 years and since I moved into her dad's house (long story) we've been spending alot of time together. I'm like a member of thier family...which isn't really that much of a problem except for the whole "I love one of your daughters" aspect...which is kind of obvious to everyone. We flirt...and I mean flirt like mofos...and I mean really flirt sometimes...think is I KNOW she's a player--maybe that turns me on? Maybe I want to help her? My number one concern is her happiness. Once she jokingly said I was a "brotherly" figure...now I don't know if she was just trying to divert the subject away from her real feelings or that is really how she feels. So tonight her a friend of hers, and myself (next door neighbor) were all drinking and having a great time playing some "interesting" games some of which involved some sexual themes...normally when females are sexual with each other that turns me the hell on...but tonight with the 2 females on each other + alcohol you'd think I'd be in heaven right? WRONG, I was too overly jealous of the 1 other guy (which actually is also in love with her--and she toys with him) when "stuff" was happening. So, 2 girls doing stuff, plus a girl all over me...and I feel jealous and hurt because I can't have "THE ONE" girl--do I need some serious help or what? What's more confusing is some of the things she had to do to me were...intimate. WTF? I feel like I'm in mother fucking high school again with all the drama and other related bullshit. So I leave hastefully in my car going too fast for the neighborhood--and come home crying like a little fucking kindergartener...

They want me to come over tomorrow and do it again, drink + "sex" games...but I was like "no"...even though this other girl wants to "fuck me silly" (her words) What's wrong with me? Am...I really a nice guy or am I just jealous and a huge FOOL? I can't talk to ANYONE I know about this...mostly because subjects like this I talk to HER about...and or her mom...and or someone else which I can't tell. So I'm sort of in a HUGE sinkhole here. I'm begining to think that I should just move out and disassociate myself with everyone (again). I may not be religous or whatever...but...god help me. <img src=smilies/cry.gif> I'm going to cry myself asleep now...

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[juggaleaux]

> They want me to come over tomorrow and do it again, drink +
> "sex" games...but I was like "no"...even though this other
> girl wants to "fuck me silly" (her words)

*slap*
You know what you have to do. :)

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[shawn]

> *slap*
> You know what you have to do. :)

Both girls at the same time. <img src=smilies/liefde.gif>

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[juggaleaux]

> Both girls at the same time.
>
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[shawn]

I knew you'ld post that Office Space image if I said that, lol. <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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[JCE3000GT]

>

That's pretty accurate. Where'd you get this? <img src=smilies/magbiggrin.gif>

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[Dark Macc]

Someone on one of the other board I post at made it. <img src=smilies/laff.gif>

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[JCE3000GT]

> > They want me to come over tomorrow and do it again, drink +
> > "sex" games...but I was like "no"...even though this other
> > girl wants to "fuck me silly" (her words)

> *slap*
> You know what you have to do. :)

I'm a nice guy...I can't do that. Not only will I feel horrible and guilty but just think how the girl would feel if she knew that I just wanted a piece of ass. I'm about to try and move on...I've got a date with a girl that I'm gonna go on...so wish me luck.

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[Goku]

She is a tease.

It looks to me like she is doing what she is doing because she WANTS you to be interested in her. It makes her feel good. The thing is she tells you that you are a botherly figure because she does not want to be with you. She likes the feel of a guy wanting her.

My sister had a friend like that. When she became older, she went slutty.

My suggestion, put her behind you. You are being played. She mignt not even realize what she is doing.

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[JCE3000GT]

> She is a tease.

Yes, she is a tease...that is true.

> It looks to me like she is doing what she is doing
> because she WANTS you to be interested in her. It makes her
> feel good. The thing is she tells you that you are a
> botherly figure because she does not want to be with you.
> She likes the feel of a guy wanting her.

Makes sense to me...it's quite interesting the things she says to me especially when she's drunk.

> My sister had a friend like that. When she became
> older, she went slutty.

This girl is kind of already slutty actually.

> My suggestion, put her behind you. You are being played.
> She mignt not even realize what she is doing.

I plan on it. Thanks for the input. <img src=smilies/werd.gif>

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[Swan3983]

I'm gonna say pretty much the same thing everybody else has... you gotta move on. If I became obsessed with all the girls I used to have a crush on, I'd probably have killed myself LONG AGO.

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[JadussD]

> My suggestion, put her behind you. You are being played.
> She mignt not even realize what she is doing.
>

that last part is the bset thing i have read in a while...it's true, most chicks who are manipulative and heart-wrenching don't even know what the hell they're doing, they just are. you can't confront them about it because they honestly don't even know themselves.

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[JCE3000GT]

> > My suggestion, put her behind you. You are being played.
> > She mignt not even realize what she is doing.
> >

> that last part is the bset thing i have read in a
> while...it's true, most chicks who are manipulative and
> heart-wrenching don't even know what the hell they're doing,
> they just are. you can't confront them about it because they
> honestly don't even know themselves.

Yea it makes sense to me...I've got a date on friday and saturday so I'm looking forward to moving on...at least I hope I am.

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[The 9th Sage]

> They want me to come over tomorrow and do it again, drink +
> "sex" games...but I was like "no"...even though this other
> girl wants to "fuck me silly" (her words) What's wrong with
> me? Am...I really a nice guy or am I just jealous and a
> huge FOOL?

Well...it sounds like these activities mean jack shit to them, to put it blunt. That kind of intimacy is special, to me at least. I'd feel uncomfortable in that situation.

And as far as that girl you're friends with...I was there, this girl named Kristy. I just had to move on after awhile. After awhile, you just gotta figure out if she's interested in you in that way then move on if she's not. I know it's hard, but you will probably feel relived once you know. I did.

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[The 9th Sage]

> > My sister had a friend like that. When she became
> > older, she went slutty.

> This girl is kind of already slutty actually.

I wasn't gonna say it. <img src=smilies/erm.gif>

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[JCE3000GT]

> > They want me to come over tomorrow and do it again, drink +
> > "sex" games...but I was like "no"...even though this other
> > girl wants to "fuck me silly" (her words) What's wrong with
> > me? Am...I really a nice guy or am I just jealous and a
> > huge FOOL?

> Well...it sounds like these activities mean jack shit to
> them, to put it blunt. That kind of intimacy is special, to
> me at least. I'd feel uncomfortable in that situation.

Well, I purposely refrained from kissing because of the intimacy thing. Other stuff doesn't bother me that much.

> And as far as that girl you're friends with...I was there,
> this girl named Kristy. I just had to move on after awhile.
> After awhile, you just gotta figure out if she's interested
> in you in that way then move on if she's not. I know it's
> hard, but you will probably feel relived once you know. I
> did.

Well, a long time ago I had a good friend that I was in love with...it took me a long while to get over her. This one however is a bit different since I live with her family...and for all intents and purposes I am a member of thier family. She's special to me...really special. But, I went out on a date last night before I went over to her house for the "games"...had fun sort of. I'll just try and preoccupy myself with dating other females to try and get my mind off of her. Doubt that'll work...but worth a try.

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