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GamerX
04-12-2002, 03:35 PM
First off, two things:

1. This is my 1000th post. Yay me. I figured I might as well make it a good one.
2. I said I'd never start a thread on here, but I feel inclined, and this board really is better than I originally gave it credit for being.

That being said, prepare for a long one. I've had a lot on my mind lately...

Ever since I applied to college, people have asked me that age-old question - "Well, what do you want to do with your life?" And not in the way you ask a 7 year old, waiting for a cutesy answer, but seriously asking me what I intended to make of my life after college. I guess there has always been high expectations of me, even though they were never put on me in a bad way. I breezed through High School with a 3.92 gpa. 3rd in my graduating class of roughly 290 students. I never tried. Homework was only done if it was graded. Tests went unstudied for consistently. I didn't evenstudy for the SAT's, ACT's, regents exams or my AP exams - I did more than adequate on all. When I got accepted to Cornell, everyone in my family, friends etc. were proud of me, but I really didn't care. I never did when it came to academia. It's just not my "thing." Sure, I'm smart, people have always told me that, and I know it too, but it just never mattered to me. Nothing did. The awards, grades, nothing. They're small things compared to what else was/is in my life. Anyway, back to the original point - I'd always tell people when asked what I wanted to do: "Well, I'm not quite sure yet. I still have time to figure it out."

So that line worked for about 2 years. Now I'm on the verge of being half way done with my college education, and the same people are still asking me the same question. I still don't know. I'm a Biological Sciences major, with a concentration in Ecology and Evolutionary Biology. Good for me. I'll get my degree in it, and probably with honors too. What I'll do with that degree, I haven't the faintest idea. The problem I have is not that there isn't anything that grabs my interest; it's that everything grabs my interest. I love Eco & Evo, don't get me wrong. I'm also fascinated by Physics. Chemistry comes easy to me, and I enjoy it too. I love Graphic Design. Hell, that's where a huge chunk of my free time goes. Math has always been my strongest subject, and one that also fascinates me. My Shakespeare professor practically begged me to switch to an English major. I would enjoy that too. My favorite line of courses in High School? Architecture. You can see how this gets confusing...

The problem I have, is two fold. One, I have a horrible time deciding things like this. I know whatever I decide, will be what I do with at least the next few years of my life. That scares me. I'll admit it. That's why I've stuck with Bio. No reason to change if whatever I change to will make me just as uncertain. Secondly, although my interest is sparked in all these areas, I honesly cannot see myself pursuing a career in any of them. I guess you could say that I'm just not passionate about anything in that respect. Sure I enjoy many things, but none truly captivate me.

All of this got me to thinking the other night. I'm sure you all have heard the saying - "Think about what you'd do with your life if you didn't have to worry about how much money you'd make. That, is what you should do for a career." I think that's a very true statement, and would probably help a lot of people. It helped me. I'm sure some of you at least have also seen Office Space. The main character basically answers this question, by saying he'd do nothing. Nothing at all. I'm exactly like that guy. You want to know what I'd do with my life if I didn't have to worry about money? I'll tell you -

I'd design a home in the Adirondacks (Upstate NY mountains). Have people build it for me, and just do nothing all day long. I'd wake up, make my wife a huge breakfast (assuming I'm married, which I plan to be) , and go for a early morning swim in the lake. I'd read the paper (and by paper I mean the Sports and Comics, everything else is just depressing and boring). I'd hike all throughout those mountains; I'd canoe in every lake and down every river. I'd watch the sunset nightly. I'd build a fire at night and read - every great novel there was to read. I'd crawl into bed whenever I got tired, and wake up whenever I felt rested. Then do it all over again. My career would be experiencing nature, and my knowledge would be of the environment in which I lived. No research, no deadlines, no meetings. That would be my life. And I would love it.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. I think it did help.

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Danoz
04-12-2002, 07:04 PM
I still use the "I've got lots of time to decide" line... but being a Junior in High school, I'm allowed to use that line :D. Your lucky gX, you have all the options right now.

I'll tell you what though, "Office Space" captivated me in the exact same way. Behind a desk? That's not life... that's bullshit. But in believing that you should follow a career you love, I also believe that you should do what you have to in order to take care of your family. My papa (grampa) was very poor growing up. He survived on one loaf of bread a day in a family of 5. It's the same old story, but he didn't want his future family to live like that. So he got a job in a steel company and worked his royal ass off for years. Did he hate the job? Sure, it was work. Did he hate his life? No, because he loved that he was taking care of his family and making things good for them.

The fact that you have a choice is the best thing in the world! So think of it in a different way, that your going to make a contribution to something.

I have totally jerked off high school all the way up until this point... and have a 2.5 to show for it :D. Does it matter? No way! Anybody can call me lazy, but I never sit on my ass... I do a shitload of shit (lol). I work with guitar and piano, then I compose music on my keyboard... graphics design, web mastering and glasko.com, (which i put a lot of work into), programming, romhacking (oh it counts :D. ROM Hacking is simply puzzle solving.) and then I play football, run on a daily basis, and work in 3 choirs. not to mention individual voice lessons. Excuse me if I forgot to do a science paper, call me lazy- and I'll just laugh.

I think of all the people I've talked to online, I have most in common with you gX. You recognize the bullshit, while most people spend thier lives worrying about petty things. Yup, whatever you do you'll be good at it. Plus you have skills in Math that just don't make sense to me, my mind is anything but Mathematical. You got a good sense of logic, and your dedicated to whatever your doing.

Seems like you got things more figured out more than I do ;). Sorry about the terrible sentance structure, I was throwing things in all over the place :D. ---Peace man, Danoz.

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Fla Flash
04-12-2002, 08:10 PM
First off, welcome to the ultimates.
Second, you sound like you actually know what you want. You'll make the right choice at the right time. It sounds as though you've been given a wonderful gift (intelligence) and I don't think you'll waste it. I breezed through everything myself and found myself in a trade I've grown to love over the past twentysomething years. I love my work. Either designing something for a customer or actually running the job on a press, I do love my job. I hope you get that lucky. ^_^

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Isildur
04-12-2002, 11:21 PM
> But if you
> were going to pursue some other subject I'd say that math
> would carry you far in a lot of career areas.
>

Lol, that reminds me of the old humorous mathematicians' proverb that my father (a mathematician himself) sometimes quotes:

"There's no telling how far a good man will go...

...once he leaves mathematics."

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icenine0
04-13-2002, 04:01 AM
Your career doesn't have to be your whole life, and your free time is your own. Want to be an evolutionary biologist who dabbles in (and consequently is quite good at) graphic design? A man who, also, when the mood strikes him, submits excellently worded and truly persuasive editorials to his local paper?

Go for it.
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Paladyn
04-15-2002, 02:37 PM
You sound alot like me. It's amazing to be able to ask yourself "What can I do with my life?" and have the answer come back as "Anything I want to." That's a very valuable thing. I'll just offer you one piece of advice. Since your interests cover a broad area, choose a job that will leave you with the greatest combination of time and money to pursue the other areas, even if it's on a more informal scale.

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