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SwampGas

10-09-2003, 10:43 AM

shit's been pretty bad recently...but moreso in the last few weeks. hence, another whining session to get it off my chest.

since i lost my biggest client, i'm basically bringing in NO money. this puts me in a pretty shitty position for when the bills are due next week. i can't think of any alternate sources of income...this is the only thing i know. it's my career. i consider losing a client like getting laid off.

my freaking tooth is killing me. i'm assuming that means i need a trip to the dentist....no dental insurance and i seem to get light headed, nearly faint, puke, etc when i get needles now. i don't understand it...needles don't bother me. so not only am i paying for dental work out of the pocket, but i also get to puke and pass out.

i'm so freaking bored i want to die. i didn't even leave the house today. mentally, i'm exhausted. my eyes are killing me. physically, i feel like running a marathon...hence i can't sleep.

a woman would solve 90% of the problems....however, women don't want someone who is an unstable mess. i've become an unstable mess. not good for the woman situation.

also been giving serious thought to lasik or ladar. someone else i know got it....that makes: bruce, matt, sue, mike and now bob. they all have had a successful run with it....it's not that i dislike glasses....it's that i don't like the pair i have now and i don't have visual insurance.

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fairykiller

10-09-2003, 01:53 PM

> also been giving serious thought to lasik or ladar. someone
> else i know got it....that makes: bruce, matt, sue, mike and
> now bob. they all have had a successful run with it....it's
> not that i dislike glasses....it's that i don't like the
> pair i have now and i don't have visual insurance.

I got it too. Lenses were just annoying and I refused to put on a pair of glasses. They work for some people, but I tried every single variation on glasses I could find (they're very cheap in India) and I couldn't find anything that looked good on me. So I started wearing lenses, but my eyes kept reacting with them horribly. I tried switching to weekly and then daily disposable lenses, but it didn't help a lot. I wore them anyway for 7 years. Lots of pain. I couldn't just fall asleep with them on (which I do all the time), and if I did I would wake up with little reddish-blue eyes and I would have to hide myself from dust for a few days. Which is not an easy thing to do in Bombay.
So anyway, my point is that the surgery rocks. You can always still wear your glasses if you like them (just get another frame put in), and the level of convenience is just awesome. I was pretty blind when I didn't have my lenses on, and I haven't had any problems with my vision after the surgery.

Good luck. I hope things work out for you.

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wingless

10-09-2003, 04:06 PM

fairykiller

10-09-2003, 09:26 PM

> I'd think that the surgery would cost more than new glasses,
> with or without insurance.

how much does lasik cost here? it cost me about 30,000 indian rupees (~$600). it's likely to be different now, since i did it a long time ago when it was 'new' and a lot more expensive. but then again, things tend to be cheaper in india. just curious.

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Dark Macc

10-09-2003, 09:33 PM

> how much does lasik cost here? it cost me about 30,000
> indian rupees (~$600). it's likely to be different now,
> since i did it a long time ago when it was 'new' and a lot
> more expensive. but then again, things tend to be cheaper in
> india. just curious.

Upon last check, here in Michigan it's $2,000 an eye. <img src=smilies/erm.gif>

maq112k2

10-09-2003, 10:55 PM

> Upon last check, here in Michigan it's $2,000 an eye.

My grandparents had it done for $2000 each (both eyes). They said it's worth it, however. I'm thinking about getting it done.

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fairykiller

10-09-2003, 11:17 PM

> Upon last check, here in Michigan it's $2,000 an eye.

Hahaha, that figures. You could pay for a return ticket to India and get your eyes fixed and buy a few pretty pashmina shawls and live in a luxury hotel for a couple nights, and the total cost would still be cheaper than getting surgery done here.

Damn, I love my country <img src=smilies/laff.gif>.

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shawn

10-09-2003, 11:28 PM

> Damn, I love my country .

But isn't India infested with those pesky elephants. <img src=smilies/upeyes.gif>

IceWolf20

10-10-2003, 01:21 AM

> Damn, I love my country .

Government sponsored healthcare? Actually, what the heck is the form of government there? Afterall, everyone thinks we're a democracy in the US, when in reality we're a republic....go figure.

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Reaper man

10-10-2003, 01:12 PM

> i'm so freaking bored i want to die. i didn't even leave
> the house today. mentally, i'm exhausted. my eyes are
> killing me. physically, i feel like running a
> marathon...hence i can't sleep.

did you try sleeping pills? You sound like you really need the sleep <img src=smilies/erm.gif>

if they don't work then perhaps you should see a doctor and maybe (s)he will give you something stronger like for insomniacs or something

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fairykiller

10-10-2003, 02:17 PM

> Government sponsored healthcare?

God no. Things are cheaper in India - not just medically speaking - but only if you're earning in dollars. Of course, if you live in India you earn in rupees and not dollars, so things aren't so cheap anymore. Everything would just seem cheap to anybody who lives in the US because of the dollar to rupee conversion. 1 dollar is 50 rupees, and 50 rupees can buy you a lot in India. So for example, in India I would be considered rich (enough to be in the top 1% of the population economically). However, when I convert my money from Indian rupees to dollars, I need to be on total financial aid in order to be able to study in the US for even a few months. I simply wouldn't be able to afford college here.
That's also why a lot of Indians want to settle down in the US - the dollar is more valuable in literal currency terms, and so you earn a lot more technically. What those people don't get is that you may be earning more technically speaking, but if you're living in the US you're going to be spending in dollars too. So that benefit is totally nullified. And you're losing your lifestyle, if you come from a well-to-do family (you'd have at least two servants, a driver, basically a very comfortable life in India).

Actually, what the heck is
> the form of government there?

It's a democracy. I believe it's the largest democracy in the world.

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Paladyn

10-10-2003, 03:09 PM

> That's also why a lot of Indians want to settle down in the
> US - the dollar is more valuable in literal currency terms,
> and so you earn a lot more technically.

I heard that, for less than what a townhouse goes for in the US, you could build a house in India composed almost entirely of Marble, and live quite comfortably besides.

Of all the words of thought or pen, the saddest are these: "what might have been".

wingless

10-10-2003, 04:09 PM

> My grandparents had it done for $2000 each (both eyes).
> They said it's worth it, however. I'm thinking about
> getting it done.

I'm wary of new procedures like that. I'll wait 20 more years until I'm positive that after the surgery people's eyes dont dry out, shrink, and roll out of their eyesockets. <img src=smilies/thumb.gif>

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fairykiller

10-10-2003, 09:55 PM

> I heard that, for less than what a townhouse goes for in the
> US, you could build a house in India composed almost
> entirely of Marble, and live quite comfortably besides.

That's true if you lived in a relatively less populated part of India. Property, though, is the one thing that isn't cheap (especially in cities), simply because there are so many people and very little space. So costs keep rising. I think Bombay has the second-highest property costs in the world. But marble is cheap. And labour is dirt cheap. So once you have some land, it wouldn't cost you much in terms of dollars to do something with it. And it would cost you even less to furnish it, hire servants, and live comfortably.

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fairykiller

10-10-2003, 10:02 PM

> I'm wary of new procedures like that. I'll wait 20 more
> years until I'm positive that after the surgery people's
> eyes dont dry out, shrink, and roll out of their eyesockets.

Hmm, let's hope that doesn't happen <img src=smilies/errrr.gif>
I don't blame you though, one of the hardest things I had to do before the surgery was sign this list of things that might go wrong for which I wouldn't hold the doctors responsible. It was long and extensive, and it involved blindness.
I'm glad I did it though, it's been totally worth it. Freedom.

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CEpeep

10-10-2003, 10:22 PM

> But marble is cheap. And labour is dirt cheap. So
> once you have some land, it wouldn't cost you much in terms
> of dollars to do something with it. And it would cost you
> even less to furnish it, hire servants, and live
> comfortably.

Holy shit. I should take a trip to India. This nickle in my pocket would probably get me a night's stay at a 4 star hotel.
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